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[Doggygirl]

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OMG the Ta Kill Ya warning had me rolling! :H

Will not mention how many things in those videos reminded me of me.....

DG

[JackieClaire]

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one tequila.......two tequila..........three tequila..........floor

Not to mention shouting down the big white telephone:eeew:

:H

J x

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[BPleasant]

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There are many of those on youtube, could be an inspiration for some that want to quit to look at them.

I was thinking about the Marshmallow, it's a good analogy until one (me) realizes, wow, if I wait til Wednesday, I could have 7. I thought about that and decided even IF I decide on Wednesday to drink, I will only have two. Amazing how my mind works. hahaha!!
I was thinking about having wine for the super bowl and I could have easily gone to a relatives and done just that, I stayed behind tho and there is no wine here and I won't be bothered to go get any. Just those thoughts produced a little anxiety and I feel a tension in my jaw and behind my ears. The roads aren't so bad, but the thought of getting dressed in 'street' clothes and going to get the wine is more effect than I will put into it tonight. Guess that's a good thing.

There are 15, I have only watched the first one. Yeah, those did nothing for me... they were under humor but were not funny and a waste of time. Alteast the other two I watched were a waste of time.
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[BPleasant]

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My sleeping seems different, I think it may have more to do with lack of sun than not drinking. It's finally winter-ish here, not used to trying to wake up to lack of sunshine. I feel good.

[BPleasant]

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Had some wine Monday. Cried with an old friend on line and went to bed early. Drinking twice in ten days or so is far better than everyother day! Anyhow, I will just keep on keeping it in my thoughts. feeling more in Limbo than I have in a long, long time.

[BPleasant]

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Well, don't bring wine in the house. Drank Monday and Wednesday and now reading the detox thread has scared me. My heart is racing and I hate myself yet again.

[JackieClaire]

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Bp,
Don't hate yourself,honey.:l

HATE the alcohol.

Saw you on the other thread. Great news that you're going to see your Doctor. Tell him how low you're feeling.

J x

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[BPleasant]

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Thanks J. I only hate myself for a portion of a hangover... I am better again. But the detox thread scared me. Had to talk with my SO about it. He was not happy that I got freaked about the thread and I then tried to calm myself now by reading Readers Digest and the first page I turn ed to was also about heart attacks, I had myself pretty convinced I was going to have a heart attack. With fast heart rate, tight sore jaw, neck pain, even some back pain, I was pretty close to heading to the ER. But, alas, I wake with sinus pressure, gross and sore throat and apparently have gotten what's going around. I don't drink when I am sick so... no issue with that. Spent the day trying to get the crud to die.
I was making a DR to check my thyroid check. I thought with the rapid heart rate my thyroid may be askew again.
I feel horrible, sick, sick, sick... thanks for the warmth!

[Gumdrops]

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BPleasant;804408 wrote: reading the detox thread has scared me

ME, TOO!!! I won't breathe easy until it's been 2-3 weeks!

[BPleasant]

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I am still sick. felt better yesterday and so I DRANK! Now, I am really sick.

Don't hate myself hate the alcohol.
So, I drank, Monday Wednesday and Saturday... not good.

[BPleasant]

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Feeling totally out of control... wow, this sucks. I need to get serious about this!

[Jolie]

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Hang in there BP - just try to string a few days together. When you feel better physically and mentally (the guilt was always very hard for me), it should get easier to try to avoid the AL.

I tried talking to myself like an adult would talk to a child - asking myself how could I have that little control over my life. I know it's the poison that is in our system that controls us and urges us to take that first drink. This is really hard - probably one of the hardest things I've ever done - please don't give up - we are all here for you.

Jolie

[BPleasant]

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Thanks Jolie, not giving up...
Things I learned. I can easily get pretty much whatever I want. I have to quit using people to perpetuate my addiction to alcohol. I don't want to bring wine into the house, but it only takes a few thoughtful sentences and it will just COME TO ME.... it's magic!
I learned this morning that mixing alkazseltzer cold with with cold green tea from the fridge looks just like an icy cold, big headed beer, but in a wine glass! So, a more sophisticated and feminine beer. lol hahaha! I set it on the counter, came back and wolaaa a whole new look.
After reading about paradoxical disorder, I cut the amount of cold med in half and that seems to be pretty good for me.

How is it after not drinking for 40 hours one can feel so strong like alcohol just really doesn't matter, it's a non-issue. I have no interest in it. Last week, I seemed to have a heightened anxiety about it, maybe I let reading the threads here get in too deeply and it made it, anxiety, worse.
String a couple of days together. Yep, I want to do that.

[Gumdrops]

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BPleasant;806629 wrote: I don't want to bring wine into the house, but it only takes a few thoughtful sentences and it will just COME TO ME.... it's magic!

LOL!!!! Woman, you made me spit pepsi out my nose laughing! Magic? That's too funny!!! :H

[BPleasant]

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f5-
Woke in the middle of the night filled with angst, thoughts swirling of this is my life, this is my life. I calm myself by hearing myself say, "for now".

Accountability- I did not drink alcohol yesterday.