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    I am a survivor

    Hope this is not boring, but it will be theraputic for me......

    As I read these stories and make new friends, I am amazed at the tragedy and pain alcohol has caused all of us. But I am also touched by the strength and support shown here.

    I have come to the conclusion that ALL of us are SURVIVORS.....

    I was taken away from my birth mother at the age of three due to mental issues...or so they told me. I had an 18 month old sister and a newborn brother. We were all taken away and made wards of the State of Georgia; Cobb County to be specific.
    My brother was adopted immediatly and I have no memory of him. My little sister and I were placed in a new foster home every 8 to 12 months. The thinking was that we did not need to get too attached to new mommies and daddies.

    When I was 10, my sister and I were seperated since no one would adopt the two of us. I was very bright, but my sister had severe learning disabilities. I remember the day she was put in the car and driven away like it was yesterday.

    I was finally adopted at 13. My sister and I tried to stay in touch. She was never adopted and became a prostitute and a heroin addict.

    I was a hard- headed, stubboirn kid (still am!!), so my adopted parents put me in church, private school, ballet, etiquette and grooming classes. They pushed HARD, and while I had a lot of resentment as a teenager, I now what they did for me was priceless.

    I SURVIVED A CRAPPY, SAD EARLY CHILDHOOD.....

    As an adult I know I had abandonment issues and can be emotionally immature, but overall I think I am pretty great!!!

    I married my college sweetheart, but left him after two years as he was a HUGE pothead. I couldn't stand it. (And to think I have addiction issues now!!!)

    Anyway, about a year later, I met my current husband. I was madly in love, being rapiidly promoted up the corporate ladder, bought my first house, and CRASHED with MAJOR depression. BAD>>>>>>suicidal and the whole bit.
    But with the love of a wonderful man, lots of research., a good doctor, A fabulous therapist anda meds, I mended.

    I SURVIVED DEPRESSION AND A BRUSH WITH SUICIDE....

    At 35 I was married with a 4 year old and an 8 month old....two precious sons. I was an executive making good money. I was happy. And then one day in the shower I found a lump in my armpit. Two days later we found out it had spread and was stage 3. I went through 7 months of chemo, 4 months of radiation, lost my hair and puked in my garbage can at work. But today, 9 years later, i am cancer free.
    This wasn't suppsed to happen to a young mother was it??

    I SURVIVED CANCER....

    ANd now, several years later I am battling problem drinking. My husband lost a very successful business making over 6 figures. WE have had to file bankruptcy and our home is in foreclosure. But we have a happy. loving family and supportive parents.

    WE ARE SURVIVING.....

    And so are all of you. Be thankful for the blessings in your life and fight....

    All this other crap didn't beat me and I'll be damned if booze will either.
    I love my family more than alcohol.:h
    Live in the Solution....not the problem

    #2
    I am a survivor

    Hiya Mama - thanks for sharing your story - you sound like you have certainly had your fair share of crap to deal with over your life - well done to you
    It's time I put my big girl pants on. :grannypants: I hope they fit.

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      #3
      I am a survivor

      (hugs) Have you tracked your siblings or parents down?

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        #4
        I am a survivor

        Thank you for sharing,mama :l
        J x
        :l
        It could be worse, I could be filing.
        AF since 7/7/2009

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          #5
          I am a survivor

          Hi MBear, I am glad that you wrote this all out. Yesterday, you said this was important for you....I think you are right and that one of the most useful healing tools we have is writing. Keep writing, it helps!

          I think many here could right a book on loss, injustice, abuse, etc. But, at the end of the day, we are still here, we need to stay grateful for what we have, and as most of us know.....we can never truly know what the future will bring!

          Thank you for sharing,
          I wish you comfort, strength and joy!
          xx Kate
          A Dream is a Wish Your Heart Makes~Cinderella

          AF 12/6/2007

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            #6
            I am a survivor

            mama bear;816877 wrote:

            All this other crap didn't beat me and I'll be damned if booze will either..
            Amen Sister Bear!! Thanks for sharing. As Gloria sings it..."I will survive!"
            :l
            Eve11
            "Control your destiny or somebody else will"

            ~Jack Welsh~:h

            God grant me the serenity to accept the people I cannot change, the courage to change the one I can, and the wisdom to know it's me. ~Author unknown, :thumbs:

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              #7
              I am a survivor

              thank you for sharing mama.....you are our inpiration and hope....I do know that you will beat this demon and survive one more thing....Rusty XXXXX
              :heart:AF since May 31 2008.....Happy and Healthy

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                #8
                I am a survivor

                You've been to the deep end a few times and you are swimming - thanks for telling Your Story.

                HG

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                  #9
                  I am a survivor

                  wow Mama, sending you lots of huggles. You are one very special person.

                  :h
                  Developing an Attitude of Gratitude

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                    #10
                    I am a survivor

                    amazing story mama! thank you so much for sharing. for sure you have had your struggles! i am sending you love and strength.
                    xoxoxox
                    the bellinator
                    :h getting better every day

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                      #11
                      I am a survivor

                      I lost my 16 year old brother to cancer in July of 08 and I am glad you are cancer free, your health is more important than any money issues, altho I also know how hard it can be to transition from one income level to another from personal experience. Thanks for sharing your story. I am sorry to hear about your sister, that's got to be hard.
                      I ain't afraid of no ghost....

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                        #12
                        I am a survivor

                        Thank you for sharing your story MB..
                        You are truly a survivor, and I am sorry to hear about all the pain you have gone through.. but you sound like a tough fighter so I know you can do this and beat AL!
                        Love Katie xxx
                        "It works if you work it, because you are worth it!!!"

                        :groupluv:

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                          #13
                          I am a survivor

                          Thanks for the honest post MB. I got a sense of a real determined and strong woman from reading your post. Keep up the good work.

                          Below are lyrics from a track by The Levellers called "Survivors". I've played this tune a good few times over the past 9 months and it's helped a lot.

                          In the life, in front of you and me
                          Seems there is no logic - No place that you must be
                          And there are times, that it gets so hard to see
                          To find the valid reasons - For the things that come to be
                          But you must try, to set your spirit free
                          You know you cannot hide, from spiritual disease
                          And it seems you cannot please the present company
                          CHORUS
                          Who could claim to know the answers
                          It's just the way, we're all meant to be
                          'Cause love is stronger in survivors
                          Survivors follow destiny

                          Love and Light
                          Phil
                          xx
                          "Keep me away from the wisdom which does not cry, the philosophy which does not laugh and the greatness which does not bow before children." Kahlil Gibran
                          Clean and sober 25th January 2009

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                            #14
                            I am a survivor

                            thanks for sharing mb. youve certainly been through it, you really are a survivor. AL has got one hell of a challange in you. keep being strong xxx
                            Today is the tomorrow i worried about yesterday and it turned out fine
                            Keep passing the open windows

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                              #15
                              I am a survivor

                              Thanks for all your sweet comments everyone.....
                              I love my family more than alcohol.:h
                              Live in the Solution....not the problem

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