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[tictak]

I am 41 years old and a daughter of a dead alcoholic.I have been drinking since i was about 16 but in the last 10 years its really escalated.I have 2 kids of 11 and 14 who i love to death.Some weeks i drink 7 bottles of wine some weeks i drink more and some less.... ive been to the docs on a few occations about my problem but they just dismiss me.Ive had 2 liver function tests in the last 5 years and both said it was ok but i dont believe it.I know i have a major problem but at the same time i know im in denial

[JackieClaire]

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:welcome: tictak,

Huge step you've made today. You're in a place of no judgement and masses of advice.
Have a look in the link below to get a plan of action together
https://www.mywayout.org/community/f1...box-27556.html.

Keep reading,keep posting and let us know how you're getting along.

J x

[jessie]

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:welcome:Hi Tictak, acknowledging the problem is step one, keep reading and posting here.

[spuddleduck]

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:welcome: hi tictak. glad youve found us. this is a great place to be. i had a liver function test a couple of weeks before i came on here. i was fine. bloody miracle as i had been drinking 2/3 bottles of wine or lots of vodka every other day, or daily sometimes. i could have taken it as a green light to carry on drinking as it "wasnt harming me" ha ha. of course it was physically and mentally. instead i have taken it as a second chance to sort myself out before i get really ill. ive now been 13 days AF. its been really hard and still is but its sooooo worth it. this site has been fantastic. so much help, support and advice. its great to know im not alone in my struggles. other people have done it and are doing it so we can too. come here and read read read and you will find your inner strength. wishing you the very very best on this difficult journey. xx

[tictak]

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Thanks for your support everyone.Im trying to cut down and i do well for the first part of the week then it all seems to go to pot.I really want to give up totally but thats very daunting

[mario]

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hi tictac, you need to take it one step at a time,dont think about totally giving it up,not yet.give yourself small goals and write a plan,drop in here daily as i am sure you know there is lots of help & support.there is a newbie thread here that you may try out also a march marching thread to stop drinking for this month drop in and say hello.

[mama bear]

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HeyTiktak
do it for your girls....my family is my motivation.I am still stumbling, but I get so much encouragement from
my friends here to dust myself off and start over....so that's what I do...and you can too
We are here for you!!!!

[Seacailin]

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Welcome Tictak
This is a very helpful and supportive place. There is lots of useful information, pain, heartache, triumph, and laughter in the threads. The Live Chat has saved my butt more than once. Stick around. We can help!

[tictak]

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well its tues and ive had a bottle of wine,wasnt going to but of course i did.Monday was good though ,no wine

[mama bear]

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Bravo on Monday, tictak....now put the wine down and start over......come visit us other newbies in the newbies nest

[tictak]

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Well its rubbish day tommorow so i can throw out those hidden bottles in the recycling now

[KatieB]

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Yay!
Well done.. I find I cannot keep AL in the house.. its a great step to take.. and its good that you see this, and that shows you are not in denial.. i found that the hardest step.. i was lying to myself; when i came out of the "fog" and admitted to myself that I was going overboard, and not drinking in a "normal" way, my life improved..
Katie xx

[tictak]

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Just thought i'd add a bit more to my story.... just to maintain my misery.... lol... well you gotta laugh havnt you.
I was brought up my an orphane who was from ireland but whom got shipped over to oz when she was about 5.She grew up their and had a very bad childhood brought up by nuns.She met my dad who was from britain and had me when she was 21.She was a drug addict and alcoholic from as far back as i can remember but she died when she was 41 (my age now),we moved to england when i was one and my dad died from a drugs overdose when i was about 5.Now dont get me wrong,i dont blame any of this on my drinking problem,its only now that i realise what a crap childhood i had.

[tictak]

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We lived in goa for a while before i started school and mum was a morphine addict,some days i had to inject her because she wasnt capable

[KatieB]

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Wow.. tickak,
That must have been unbelievably hard to grow up with.. but you don't know any different when you're a child do you? at least you can see your childhood for what it was now.. but you can use these experiences to improve your life and not make the same mistakes as your mum.. it sounds like she was a tormented soul going through some terrible times herself.. im glad you have found us.. we will all help each other get through this!
take care hun,
Katie xxx