End of fooling around myself and the others - friends,docs etc.!!!I faced the truth!But here is my story.
I am 41 y.o. famale. I've got married 5 years ago for the most right and caring guy that I could ever met. For those 5 years I was trying to conceive a baby in vain - without having any physical obstacle I went through 5 unsucsessful IFV treatments. From being a beautiful,sucsessful and self-confidend lady little by little I started to feel inferior, lost in life with no prospective second-hand woman.
Now I'm not trying to tell you that I have never drink before. I love badly the nice wine. But it was dring for pleasure.
Suddenly /may be it just looks suddenly/7 months ago I've got deep depression. I spoke to my husband and we looked for help - shrink,neurologist and all that...antidepressants. The depression only deepened because its reason had no solution. We were against addopting a child but I started thinking over it. My husband remained implacabe.I found myself in the middle of nowhere drinking over and over again and mind it drinking no more wine but sometimes half a liter whiskey per day willing to black out my desperate thoughts and meaningless life.Finaly my instict of survival appeared and made up mind to addopt a child with or without him!The feeling of despair evaporated but I kept on drinking. At the end I won in 13 rounds bloody box match and my husband surrenderred.We are going to addopt a child!
Today I went to the bank and I hardly signed the papers - my hands were shaking, my breath was missing and my heart was in my throath. I had to admit my witdrawal symptoms cos' I quit drinking 2 days ago!
However I'm determined to hold on!Thanks to the site creators and also to you all my brothers in arms for listening to my common story!Wish you luck in the fight with the human wickness and desrair!
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