I am tired of running from my emotional issues behind a bottle of whiskey. I want to be a responsible new parent and I want to be a good wife again. I am so sick to my stomach when I get to the bottom of the bottle and start a fight with anyone that will listen. I say things I don't mean or even remember saying, in person, on the phone, in e-mails. It's not fair to my loving husband, who is always here for me no matter what I do.
I too am looking for a way out. A good nights sleep, and peace of mind that I am being the best person I know how to be. I am so sad that it has come to this, that I have started to taint a wonderful relationship, and I am looking for that life back. I know it's not too late to start fixing myself so that I can fix my errors at home.
Today is going to be the day I clean out the cabinets, put the bottle down and apologize to my husband for all of my mistakes. Today is the first day of a promise that I am making to myself, and my family before it's too late and I loose everything I hold dear.
It just looks like I am going to need support from every which way, but today is the day I am ready to make amends and start living life the way it is meant to be lived.
Thanks.....:new:
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