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[Jolie]

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Hey Jude,

I have a similar story to yours and have often wondered why my husband never notices my "nightly" state of mind. I would drink my wine out of a coffee cup every night (1 small bottle of wine each night). Hide the wine downstairs in the basement - feel ashamed embarassed just thinking about it now. I think you were waiting for some type of intervention and your doc gave it to you! I myself drink for the buzz so drinking one or two glasses is just never going to be enough for me. Working on day 6 AF and feeling pretty good. Are you taking the L-Glut? Seems to be helping me a lot more this time (this is my third time back at MWO).

Mylife & Flossie - sounds like we have about the same number of days under our belt - can't believe how nice it is to wake up in the morning without that awful feeling of guilt - arghhhhh - I drank again last night??? Hope we can all become buddies and help each other beat the demon!

Bzz - good luck to you with whichever route you choose - just cutting back is a major accomplishement!

Chill - don't know if you remember me or not but I know we have chatted in the past.

Hope everyone has a beautiful, clear-headed, sober weekend!

[Judestir]

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Hi Jolie, you know the weird thing is that I think my husband likes it that I drink. I can't count how many times he has come home with a nice case of wine for me. He thinks drinking makes me happy and he wants me to be happy. So if Jude is happy I am happy. If wine makes Jude happy, then wine it shall be. It sure is an easy way out for him and for me. He drinks too, but not like me. He can come home from work and have a beer or two and leave it at that. Although on the weekends his train will often leave the station and not return for some time. He is more of a binger. He also does not function the next day well if he has been drinking, so he must limit himself in order to get to work and be functional.

When I told him what I was going to be doing (3 months) he was supportive. He said that he would not drink along with me. The day before I started, I told him that i would not hold him to not drinking. This is my thing and I will do it for myself and if he wants to drink so be it. My hope is that once there is no booze in the house he will not go out to buy it. I am the pusher in many ways, I keep the house stocked. I am also hoping that he will see how well I am doing and want to do it himself. He is more of a social drinker and I can't see him getting on his run away train with out me. So if the conductor is not on board, he just might not leave the station. hahahah.

Gotta run...off to spin class
I am liking my new friends.
How you doing Flos????

[Judestir]

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Ohh Jolie I meant to mention..THIRD TIME IS GOING TO BE THE CHARM!! And yes I took L-gutimine yesterday for the first time. I wasn't sure how much, so I waited unitl afternoon ( a couple of hours before my trigger time) and took two 1500mg tabs. How much is everyone else using and when?? It worried me a bit because one of the posters here said it gave her/him bad anxiety and another said it was bad for the liver. But most had raving reviews, so I went with the majority. I also bought vitamin B complex and took that this morning for the first time.

I am feeling very good and optimistic this morning after my workout.
Have a great AF day everyone!!

[Judestir]

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I just got in the house from brunch with my husband and the first thing that crossed my mind when I looked at the clock was hey only four more hours until happy hours uggggggggg!! Must change these thought patterns that pop up out of no where. Shaking head at self!!

[jennyneric]

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two 1500mg tabs wow, I take one 500mg tab and in the early days of taking it, it gave me a headache and a "floaty" feeling so I can not imagine what 3000mg would do to me. I take 500mg at 2pm, 4pm,6pm, and 10pm and i had to work up to that. I love it though it is awesome for cravings. I have been AF 19 days on it!

[Judestir]

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Hi Jen
This is my second day with 3000mg and I don't even know if I feel a difference. The container said take 3000mg twice daily so I figured if I took it only once daily (right before my sugar cravings kick in) that would be the bare minumum. I read somewhere on here not to take it in the afternoon or evening because it could cause insomnia. A big hooray on the 19 days AF, very awsome indeed!!

Happy Hour is here and I would like a drink, but I know for certain that I will not have one. Now if life were stressful right now, I don't know if I could be so strong. Time will tell.

[Jolie]

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Jude,

I took probably 1500 mg per day the last time (back in October) but this time I'm only taking it in the evenings with my cup of tea. I actually buy the capsules and just open them right up into my tea. Jeez - I hope it isn't bad for the liver - I mean the alcohol has probably done enough in that area without adding hurting it anymore - right?

Jen - 19 AF days is awesome! Hope I can get there too. Day 7 for me - weekends are hard. Usually home in the afternoon/evenings by myself - not good. I would tell myself that I couldn't start drinking until after 12:00 p.m. - what rationale! I'm feeling really good sober and want to stay this way. Don't want to go back.

Do you think the vitamin B helped?

Jude - my hubby doesn't even know the extent that I drink. I think it's sweet that yours feels he is being nice by bringing home wine but hopefully he will realize how serious you are about quitting and maybe bring you flowers instead?

[Judestir]

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Morning Jolie

I think I will cut it down to 1500 mg today and see if I notice anything. It seems to be different for everyone. Congrats on DAY 7 wooooohooooo!!!!! I am one day behind you and feeling strong. We made it through the weekend, big pats on the back to all of us!!

Alone time is a trigger for me too Jo. So I am trying to fill my evenings up a bit with walks, reading on here, and treating myself to a cold diet gingerale with lots of fresh lemon. When I am looking for that sweet somthing this can be a good substitute.

My husband is on side. He knows I am in this for 90 days and as of yesterday has decided to not drink along side of me. We shall seee........ I think, he thinks that it is going to be easy. He may have a surprise in store for him. Time will tell.

Have a great AF day everyone
Later Gators
Jude

[Judestir]

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Well day seven went fine. Still feeling a bit sad, like somthing is missing. Just no pep in my step. My husband is now not on board. He had a couple of beer yesterday and I said, 'I thought you were doing this with me" He said "on some days" . Hmmmmmmmm I think he is missing the point. Anyways we were both AF today and that is what counts.

On to week 2.

[Judestir]

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Day 8 was a much better day. The saddness seems to have lifted YEAH!!

I am a little disappointed in my weight loss this week (one pound) because I have not only been Af, but I have been very careful in my food choices and have exercised every day. I think maybe my body is still adjusting to the new me. I am drinking a minumum of 8 glasses a day and still I feel dehydrated and I have just not been regular (sorry if that is TMI). Gassssssssssy!!

I guess my body is doing its best to recalibrate. Time will tell.

Have a great evening all.
Judestir

[Flossie]

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Hi Jude,

Hope you are enjoying your weekend.

How are you doing, I just know its going to be good news from you

Take care Flossie x

[piper123]

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I am another newbie. I just want the horrible guilt and sad feelings to go away. It's like the only thing that makes them go away is wine. I feel instantly relieved. Please tell me that will go away. I've been drinking a long time and I am so afraid. I only drink cheap wine, at the most two bottles a night, sometimes more. I tell myself it's only wine, not liquor so it can't be all that bad, but it is. I have the lowest self esteem I anyone could ever have. I think I am going to try the 48 hour thing starting now. Wish me luck.

[cpn1004]

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Judestir,
Your story is a lot like mine. I drank everyday but kept up all the appearances. Finally I got tired of it and gave it up. So far so good.
Good luck to you.

[Flossie]

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Dear Piper,

For a lot more wonderful advice please introduce yourself on the Just Starting Out thread.

Well done for trying 48 hrs we all have to take baby steps to get where we want to.

I wish you luck :goodjob:

Love Flossie x

[Judestir]

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Nice to meet you Piper. So are you feeling guilty about the wine or is there something else that drinking is masking for you? I am sorry you are having a rough time of it and i think strating out with 48 hours is great. Remember though that those first few days can be the hardest (I felt sooo sad), so don't judge how you are feeling sober on those first 48 hours. The suppliments can help with all of the moods and cravings so it is really worth looking into. Have you read the book and been to the tool box. There is so much to read on this site and I have found it to be so valuable in my first 13 days sober. Good luck, post often to let us know how you are doing.


Wow CPN you have been AF for over 2 years. Big pats on the back to you. So, if you don't mind me asking, what was it that made you decided that moderation was not the avenue you wanted to take? I have promised myself the 3 months AF and then I plan on stepping back and having a real good look at the situation. I'll take all the advice I can get, it will make my decision that much easier to make.

Hey Flos, how the heck are you doing?? Did you have a good visit with your company?? Are they all gone now??