Hi, I have been on this forum several years ago when I tried Topamax and am coming back for support as I try naltrexone. I have been battling my drinking for years and now it is getting bad. I drink every day 1 -2 bottles of wine or whatever is available. I regularly black out not remembering the evening. It is effecting my marriage and I know it hurts my kids to see me drink. I come from a long line of alcoholics and have always known I would probably have a problem if I continued to drink.
I am on day 5 of naltrexone. I am only taking it on my drinking days as per the Sinclair method and the book A Cure for Alcoholism. Everything I have read about Naltrexone has been very positive and I feel very good about it.
I am still drinking as per the directions. Drank too much last night after getting in an argument with my husband. We have not been doing well lately. I know my drinking is part of the problem, but when I was not drinking for 3 months this past summer it was much worse, I found that by having a drink or many more at the end of the day I could numb out and ignore the hurt in our relationship. One of the biggest issues we have is he shares everything about our marriage problems with our friends and my sister. He texts constantly to mutual friends about us and won't let me anywhere near his cell phone. I am angry that he doesn't communicate with me and it hurts that he is talking about me to our friends, I am embarrassed as well. I don't want to see our friends knowing my husband has been talking with them behind my back.
But the first thing I have to do is focus on myself, and my drinking. Hopefully the rest will get better as I do.
I am not sharing my decision to try Naltrexone with anyone, not even my husband. I simply told him that I am working with my Dr., it will take several months and I don't want to share this with anybody. The Sinclair Method is so drastically different from the widely accepted view that total abstinence and AA are the only way, and I don't want to spend energy on trying to explain and defend it. I will let my sobriety several months from now be all the explanation necessary. I suppose there is a part of me that is afraid of failing again and I am just so exhausted with disappointing myself and others.
I hate the shame and guilt I have with my drinking. I am so excited about being freed from this pain. So this is where I am starting.:new:
I am on day 5 of naltrexone. I am only taking it on my drinking days as per the Sinclair method and the book A Cure for Alcoholism. Everything I have read about Naltrexone has been very positive and I feel very good about it.
I am still drinking as per the directions. Drank too much last night after getting in an argument with my husband. We have not been doing well lately. I know my drinking is part of the problem, but when I was not drinking for 3 months this past summer it was much worse, I found that by having a drink or many more at the end of the day I could numb out and ignore the hurt in our relationship. One of the biggest issues we have is he shares everything about our marriage problems with our friends and my sister. He texts constantly to mutual friends about us and won't let me anywhere near his cell phone. I am angry that he doesn't communicate with me and it hurts that he is talking about me to our friends, I am embarrassed as well. I don't want to see our friends knowing my husband has been talking with them behind my back.
But the first thing I have to do is focus on myself, and my drinking. Hopefully the rest will get better as I do.
I am not sharing my decision to try Naltrexone with anyone, not even my husband. I simply told him that I am working with my Dr., it will take several months and I don't want to share this with anybody. The Sinclair Method is so drastically different from the widely accepted view that total abstinence and AA are the only way, and I don't want to spend energy on trying to explain and defend it. I will let my sobriety several months from now be all the explanation necessary. I suppose there is a part of me that is afraid of failing again and I am just so exhausted with disappointing myself and others.
I hate the shame and guilt I have with my drinking. I am so excited about being freed from this pain. So this is where I am starting.:new:
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