Hi everyone, this is my first time and in a desperate situation. I like many young teenagers started the drinking on a friday and saturday night and without me knowing it its escalated into a living nightmare for me. I am not sure whether i am an alcoholic or just someone who cant stop once started. Today was the first day I missed work due to excessive drinking the two days before! I am going through it all now, the guilt, the anxiety, wondering what I said the night before,who I saw, why is my life descending into this misery?
My now ex girlfriend said to me everyone loves you (sober you) but once you start to drink it all changes and you become rude and aggressive ,obnoxious! Its soul destroying on the day of the hangover, I have sat here for nearly 4 hours reading posts on peoples stories and experiences and wanted to put mine down to see whether it would help.
Today will be day one of AF! I am feeling positive and want to spend now the rest of my life away from the killer posion, stop feeling the way i do. I have spent now too many years making a disgrace of myself, driving cars, missing appointments and dealing with the dreaded black hole effect of what this does to you. I dont know why i am dependant or why I feel the need to get myself that smashed but its such a recurring incident now that I want to control it before its too late. Recently I went to an AA meeting but left after 45 minutes because it scared me and maybe I didnt want to accept that I had a problem.
The time is now though, I am 27 years old, have a fantastic job that I have worked hard for and now its time to take control of my future! Thankyou for taking the time to read this, I look forward to updating you on my progress!
Best of luck to all of you on my mission too!:thanks:
My now ex girlfriend said to me everyone loves you (sober you) but once you start to drink it all changes and you become rude and aggressive ,obnoxious! Its soul destroying on the day of the hangover, I have sat here for nearly 4 hours reading posts on peoples stories and experiences and wanted to put mine down to see whether it would help.
Today will be day one of AF! I am feeling positive and want to spend now the rest of my life away from the killer posion, stop feeling the way i do. I have spent now too many years making a disgrace of myself, driving cars, missing appointments and dealing with the dreaded black hole effect of what this does to you. I dont know why i am dependant or why I feel the need to get myself that smashed but its such a recurring incident now that I want to control it before its too late. Recently I went to an AA meeting but left after 45 minutes because it scared me and maybe I didnt want to accept that I had a problem.
The time is now though, I am 27 years old, have a fantastic job that I have worked hard for and now its time to take control of my future! Thankyou for taking the time to read this, I look forward to updating you on my progress!
Best of luck to all of you on my mission too!:thanks:
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