I've never before spoken about or told my story so I am not really sure how I should start it.
Until almost three years ago I was always a responsible drinker, where I could just go to the pub, have 2 or 3 drinks and go home sober apart from the odd birthday party I went to. After a bad ending to what would be a long term relationship to me, things started to spiral out of control.
A friend of mine too was going through the same situation as me at the time and we began hitting the pubs nearly every night, and it wouldn't be just a simple 2 or 3 drinks it would be anything between 8 and 15 plus and then going into work the following day with a massive hangover. There were times where we could go 14 days in a row drinking. This continued for a good four to five months and then we dropped down to about 3 nights a week.
There would have been no limit to how much I would have drank in a night if it was not for the bars and clubs closing. About 9 months ago I became unemployed and had no choice but to cut back going out to the pubs to 1 night a week but still I drank at home regulary.
I am now in a situation where when I do go out to drink, I have no restriction to how much I drink and drink until I have no money left. I end up getting drunk and embarrassing myself somehow and I have gotten to the stage now that I want to stop drinking but I don't really know how to go about it.
If I go about 6-7 days without drinking, I start getting cravings and become uncomfortable, irritated, tense and cannot concentrate on anything and have a bad habit of giving in to my cravings and end up back where I started. It is really starting to affect me in certain ways and in truth have made some bad decisions in the past due to drinking.
So I am now once again on my first 24 hours sober and I am going to attempt to simply give up drinking altogether, as I know that if I try to just cut back on consumption I will only go back to my old ways.
So that is my story and any advice that anyone could give me would be greatly appreciated.
Thank you for reading.
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