I can't lose my family.

[ilovemyfamily]

Hi all... :new: I just joined the community because I feel like I am losing everything I worked so hard for.

I married my husband about 8 months ago. He is the most amazing man I have ever met and I feel like he deserves something better.

I was never a heavy drinker... and I don't think I am a heavy drinker... but I guess the first step is to realize that you have a problem.

I started noticing that everytime I drank I would get very angry. It started by accepting my husband's past (drug and alcohol abuse) and I would start fighting with him very loudly. As time went by it only got worse. I didn't notices that I was drinking every day and that I was being mean to him almost every single day.

He says he loves me more than anything but that the emotional rollercoaster is starting to wear him out and that if this continues we won't be able to make it for much longer. I get tired of feeling that anger aswell, but I can't help it. I get drunk and angry. These obsesive thoughts come to my mind and I can't get over them.

I love my husband more than anything and I can't lose him.

I never thought I would be an alcoholic, or have issues with alcohol. But now I'm scared of the future. Specially now that I think this may be bipolar dissorder I have been reading a lot about it and it looks like it. Unfortunately I don't have the money to pay for doctors or medicine, but if I quit drinking I will be able so save money and save my family.


I know that the solution is in my hands only. I get scared thinking about not drinking...


Thank you for taking the time to read this.

Please... help me.

[Doggygirl]

I can't lose my family.

Hi Lovemyfamily and :welcome: You have come to a great place for help and support. I started my sober journey here at My Way Out by downloading the My Way Out book from the Health Store. I used all of the recommended tools outlined in the book except the prescription drug Topomax. There have been bumps in the road, but all the things I was on the verge of losing before I stopped drinking are not lost.

I remember that sinking and scary feeling when I finally faced that I might be an alcoholic. I never thought I would be an alcoholic. I just thought I was a "party girl." But the "party" really stopped being fun several years before I was willing to face the truth. I can also relate to getting drunk and mean towards my husband. And I too LOVE my husband very much. Every time I did that I would swear I wouldn't do it again, and then I would.

For me, that insanity and mean streak stopped once I stopped drinking. Not sure if it will work exactly that way for you, but drinking obviously isn't helping. If there is an underlying problem such as bi-polar, I have heard many doctors say it's virtually impossible to treat those underlying conditions if someone is drinking much alcohol at all - much less drinking at excessive levels.

You won't go wrong by quitting, I don't think. I wish you well on your journey.

DG

[madmans]

I can't lose my family.

Hello and welcome Lovemyfamily

Specially now that I think this may be bipolar dissorder i was convinced i was bipolar when i joined here hence the name i picked, i can see looking back it was all the drinking messing with my head, it got to the point i thought i was self medicating with alcohol just to keep on an even keel. I get scared thinking about not drinking...

we all did but it's the only way forward, MM

[ilovemyfamily]

I can't lose my family.

Thank you

Thank you DG and MM for replying so quickly and with all your good thoughts.

DG: Yes, I thought I was a "party girl" too and I honestly can't think of a way to spend time with friends without drinking. What makes things worse is that 2 years ago I decided to stop seeing a group of friends that weren't helping. We would drink amazing amounts so often that I almost failed my carreer at college. My husband told me the other day that when you stop drinking you lose many "friends".

MM: Yes, this drinking thing can be more harmful that anyone would ever think and adding a rollercoaster of emotions to that is the worst idea... ever.

And yes, you can only move on f you face your fears...

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I would like to apologize if sometimes my English sounds funny or rude, but it is not my first language.

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I just went to pick up my husband from work. Last night we got into a drunk fight and this morning he was really... not mad... dissappointed. I explained to him that I need support and he says that he will support me, our family, through everything. I hope I can still work things out in my life.

Thank you to MWO for offering this and thank you all for being so supportive.

[mario]

I can't lose my family.

Hi ilovemyfamily just like to say welcome to mwo,keep posting as your in good company.

[techie]

I can't lose my family.

Welcome ilovemyfamily. PLEASE check out the tool box suggested. I wish you well and make a point of reaching out here!

[ilovemyfamily]

I can't lose my family.

I am feeling a lot of stress right now. I want to go buy some wine and forget about everything. I am having horrible suicidal thoughts and I am completely alone.

Is anyone there?

[greeneyes]

I can't lose my family.

There is usualy someone here all ours as we are all over the globe. Please follow this link https://www.mywayout.org/community/f7...wal-13412.html

Also, please start a thread in that section so it will get immediate traffic. Can you call a friend to come over?

[ilovemyfamily]

I can't lose my family.

Thank you so much.

I just did.

Thank you

[big mo]

I can't lose my family.

Hi LMF how are now, please keep coming back and keep posting, We are all on the same boat and coming back and meeting others really does help. take care Mo

[sunshinetoday]

I can't lose my family.

Hello and welcome, everyone is here to be supportive. Maybe start with a small goal, like just today. Sometimes more than one day can be overwhelming. Good luck, and welcome!

[JackDanielsGirl]

I can't lose my family.

Iamthere

Its very hard to quit alcohol. I have tired three times before this one. Now i am in the peak of withdrawl, but we have to depend on the Lord and our family to help us through this time. If you dont have this then I would be more than willing to talk with you.

[ilovemyfamily]

I can't lose my family.

Hi friends!

I'm sorry I didn't post yesterday or today.

I am feeling much better. We have been reading a lot about alcoholism and we have found ways to get through this.

Thank you so much guys. You are just the best!

[Foamfollower]

I can't lose my family.

:welcome: Glad you're feeling a bit better ILMF, will get even better day by day. Hang in there and keep posting, believe me, it really does help if only for a chat.

:l FF

[Doggygirl]

I can't lose my family.

Hi love. I would be interested to hear a bit about what you have been reading that you have found helpful. If you care to share! So happy you sound good.

DG