Day 1 for me 11-28-11

[cuckoosnest83]

Today starts day 2 for me. Feeling really shaky because yesterday didn't eat anything at all. Couldn't keep anything down. I will not give after yesterday's feelings of hopelessness and that I was going to die. I don't want to be found dead on my bathroom floor with empty gin bottles in my house. Have the L-glutamine, the MWO cds, and the Jason Vale book. I have packed a nutritious lunch today.

[one2many]

Day 1 for me 11-28-11

AND you have all of us in your corner too Cucks!!! The worst is over you in regard to the sickness etc......you will feel much better today if you get something good to eat inside you.

Good on ya for day 2!!!

[Unwasted]

Day 1 for me 11-28-11

Cucks - sending you hugs. You can do it - read, read, read and post!

[Chief]

Day 1 for me 11-28-11

Do it Cucks!!!

I can tell you, the Jason Vale book REALLY hit home for me. It was a turning point in the way I think about alcohol. Read it and take it to heart. Alcohol does nothing for us. It's as simple as that.

Keep us posted and pm me anytime...

Don

[hart]

Day 1 for me 11-28-11

((((Cucks))))

I remember you hon. Sending you lots of luv and strength, you can do this!!!!:l:l

[cuckoosnest83]

Day 1 for me 11-28-11

One2, Unwasted, Chief, and Hart thank you so much for your responses. I really can't express how it felt to me to come home this evening and see these responses. I have been feeling so isolated and alone for so long. I know it is my doing, but doesn't make it any easier to deal with. I use to be such a socialble person, could talk to anyone about anything now my life is isolating. Want and need it to stop but only I can do that. Again thank you for caring. :H (trying to send hugs but still not sure of these emoticons) so considered yourself hugged.

Getting ready to take my dog to the vet to have stiches removed so can't write a long response but will log on when I get home.

[cuckoosnest83]

Day 1 for me 11-28-11

I did laughing.

[timpin]

Day 1 for me 11-28-11

Hi Cucks/Chief

Cucks well done on day 1 and good luck with day 2. Hopefully you will be starting to feel a little better over the coming few days. Each one gets better and better ! The other thing that gets better as well is that you start to feel less isolated and more sociable. AL took all of that away from you !

Chief, I am glad you found the Jason Vale book so useful. I honestly don't think that I could have reached day 25 without it. In fact I probably wouldn't have got much past day 1 ! He is an inspiration and everything that he writes makes total sense and cannot be argued with. I have a plan and I have the book. Now I have Campral as well and in just five days that has taken away all craving and all desire to drink. It really all seems easy at the moment, but I am under no illusion that the little monster in my head is still there and waiting to pounce again in a weak moment.

Stick with it Cucks and in a few days you'll feel great and hopefully looking forward to a much nicer way of life without the misery of hangovers !

[cuckoosnest83]

Day 1 for me 11-28-11

Timpin, thanks. I won't say this is going to be easy but life with alcohol was becoming just to difficult and it has become far to progressed to hide anymore. I haven't been living my life these past 3 years but killing myself softly with alcohol.

[techie]

Day 1 for me 11-28-11

So glad you're back in the fight. Keep making progress it's so worth it!

[cuckoosnest83]

Day 1 for me 11-28-11

Thanks, techie. Love the avatar, Christmas is my favorite season. I so don't want alcohol to rob me of this season. Love giving gifts (love getting gifts) but what I love most is the spirit of Christmas with friends and family. Hoping I make it through the season without alcohol.

[cuckoosnest83]

Day 1 for me 11-28-11

Starting on day 3 and still have all the cravings going on. Started the Jason Vale book and hope that helps. Slept slightly better last night but not a lot of sleep. That's is one thing I hate about af but I know it will get better if I hang in there. Please keep me in your thoughts.

[Unwasted]

Day 1 for me 11-28-11

Cucks, you already know, but let me reiterate -- the sleep gets to be amazing, really! Hope you are doing well.:l

[Chief]

Day 1 for me 11-28-11

Press on with day 3, Cucks. You're getting rid of the poison. Don't worry about sleep...that will come. Have you tried Calms Forte or Melatonin? They both help with the sleep.

Don't you already feel better in the morning than you did 2-3 days ago?

Keep yourself busy. Read, post, exercise (very important for mind, body & soul), drink plenty of water, juice, sport drinks. Change the way you think about your body and putting toxins into it.

We're here for you....:goodjob:

Don

[cuckoosnest83]

Day 1 for me 11-28-11

unwasted, thank you for the encouragement. I have had a few rounds of being AF but I hate the sleep deprivation. It truly wears on me. I know it will get better but very hard to suffer through the first fews days.