My drinking became a problem just over 5 years ago. I moved to Beijing when I was 24. 6 months after living here my best friend came to visit me. We drank everyday on her 2 week vacation. After she left, I felt so lonely, I just kept drinking. In the beginning I was a functional alcoholic. I would go to work everyday and then come home and drink every night. I'd say that over the past year, that has changed. I sometimes go on benders for days or weeks at a time, where I start drinking in the morning and just don't stop until it's time for bed. My husband knows I am an alcoholic but no one else does. He doesn't understand it of course because he doesn't like drinking. In the past 5 years, the longest I've been sober was 4 months. The biggest problem for me is that when I'm sober I start to burn out and like that feeling of relaxing with a few drinks, which turns into a hangover the next day, which requires a hair of the dog, which results in more drinking, which creates a bender. Unfortunately, my husband is one of the laziest people I know. He doesn't work, doesn't clean, doesn't cook. So everything is on my shoulders and this is why I burn out. Of course, I am not blaming him for me being an alcoholic. It is my own fault. I know I have a problem, but it never seems to stick in my brain that I can never have a drink again. So once I've been sober for xx months or xx days, I think I can handle a few drinks. Very frustrating!!! However, this time I am VERY determined and so day 1 begins again today.
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"When you know better, you do better"
AF- February 16, 2012
Goal 1- 3 days al free
Goal 2- 7 days al free
Goal 3- 1 month al free
Goal 4- 3 months al free -
day 1...again
Hopefully day 2 is going well CG! Look on the bright side, your partner doesn't drink. I am lucky like you as well. My wife has never been a drinker, she said she doesn't like to feel out of control. Her always being sober has really helped me although she didn't understand why I drank the way I did, she has never offered me a drink or drank in front of me. Basically she sets a good example for me.
Anyways, good luck on your journey, it will be more than worth it for you!! -
day 1...again
I am only 4 days ahead of you and I have a new determination myself to do this too! Please keep coming here and there is a lot of support here any hour of the day you need some.
Just throw up the flag and we are here to help encourage you on your journey! Hang tough...you CAN do this!Comment
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