so a new year is approaching and I so desperately want to do this and do this right. I just finished the book, and will be ordering my cd's , supplements and making dr appt as well this week. Should have everything in place by the start of 2012 !!
The guilt of this "secret" is eating away at me on so many levels. Others perception of me "having it all" and me living in that perception makes me feel like my life is one big LIE !!
However, here i am, cant change what is but I am determined to change what I am going to become if I do not get a handle on my drinking.
in the infamous words of Oprah..."what i know for sure is that i am deserving of all the wonderful things this life has to offer me (both good and bad) and i deserve to see them thru clarity and honesty (not a fuzzy haze), my son deserves a Mom who is "present" both physically, emotionally and spiritually (in times of noise and silence) and my husband as well as I deserve a honest relationship.
i hope that thru the collective desire of all of us in this forum we can give each other the strength to move forward not in this struggle but in our ability to do better for OURSELVES !
The guilt of this "secret" is eating away at me on so many levels. Others perception of me "having it all" and me living in that perception makes me feel like my life is one big LIE !!
However, here i am, cant change what is but I am determined to change what I am going to become if I do not get a handle on my drinking.
in the infamous words of Oprah..."what i know for sure is that i am deserving of all the wonderful things this life has to offer me (both good and bad) and i deserve to see them thru clarity and honesty (not a fuzzy haze), my son deserves a Mom who is "present" both physically, emotionally and spiritually (in times of noise and silence) and my husband as well as I deserve a honest relationship.
i hope that thru the collective desire of all of us in this forum we can give each other the strength to move forward not in this struggle but in our ability to do better for OURSELVES !
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