:new: I'm a wife and mother of 3. Before I met my husband 14 years ago, I never had a drink in my life. My parents were very religious and thats how I was raised. When I met my husband he had already been drinking for 11 years, he was 26 when I met him. I had my first sip of a wine cooler with him and I was hooked. I was 20 years old then. I couldn't even wait for my 21st birthday so I can go in the liquor store and buy drinks. I think that was the most exciting thing of my life at the time, outside of boys. I dranked everyday for about 10 years and lots of whatever it was that was out to drink. I ended up leaving my church and not communicating with my family for a long time. My first child was born in 93 . I got mad at him as a baby because he interrupted my drinking time. When I think about it 5 years down the line I started getting depressed and didn't know why. In between that time I had 2 abortions and lost quite a few jobs. I was blacking out breaking things in the apartment getting into more fights with my husband, my sex life was going down the tubes because I was always too tired to do anything or I would argue with my husband. The drinking went on for another 4 or 5 years everyday until I had my daughter in 2001.
I slowed down a little but not enough. I found myself extremely down in the dumps and I was looked forward to having a drink to cheer me up. I was waking up so sick sometimes throwing up all day and laying down all day neglecting my 2 children. My older won would have to watch my daughter because I was too sick to move. My husband didn't care because he had done this most of his life already.At the end of 2005 I decided I would stop drinking. I went back to church and everything. I did that until November of 2006 only because I was pregnant with my 3rd child, anothe boy. After the stress of going back to work and leaving my little one after only one month of maternity leave because of serious financial problems and martial problems I wanted another drink so bad I could taste it. I haven't been back to church and my family is sick of hearing my problems. I woke up this morning emailing my sister and brother apologizing to them and told them I was back to drinking. I felt horrible this morning. I hate drinking. I even woke up hating my husband. I just thought this is all we do. Eat, sleep, work and drink. I got scared of my life all of a sudden. I'm 35 years old and I haven't did anything with my life and I look like I'm 60. So I decided to take it upon myself to find a place online someplace where I could talk to someone. I googled alcohol anonymous and I came across this site and here I am.
I slowed down a little but not enough. I found myself extremely down in the dumps and I was looked forward to having a drink to cheer me up. I was waking up so sick sometimes throwing up all day and laying down all day neglecting my 2 children. My older won would have to watch my daughter because I was too sick to move. My husband didn't care because he had done this most of his life already.At the end of 2005 I decided I would stop drinking. I went back to church and everything. I did that until November of 2006 only because I was pregnant with my 3rd child, anothe boy. After the stress of going back to work and leaving my little one after only one month of maternity leave because of serious financial problems and martial problems I wanted another drink so bad I could taste it. I haven't been back to church and my family is sick of hearing my problems. I woke up this morning emailing my sister and brother apologizing to them and told them I was back to drinking. I felt horrible this morning. I hate drinking. I even woke up hating my husband. I just thought this is all we do. Eat, sleep, work and drink. I got scared of my life all of a sudden. I'm 35 years old and I haven't did anything with my life and I look like I'm 60. So I decided to take it upon myself to find a place online someplace where I could talk to someone. I googled alcohol anonymous and I came across this site and here I am.
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