Hi Guys,
I had been doing well for a while with the mod (although not a well as I had hoped). As you know I'm a beer drinker and before mod, I would drink around 15 beers a day. So "moderating" at 4-6 beers a day was good for me and I had great hopes of decreasing it even more...Well, I know these things I'm dealing with right now are not an excuse to drink excessively again but I did it anyway. My husband is in the middle of changing jobs. My kids got sick with a dreadful cold and I had to take my 13 year old to the doc because he had shingles. Everything seemed to have been too much this week and I made the mistake to buy a 5 L box of wine on Monday and sipping it throughout the day, every day. Also, my husband came home with 12 packs of beer nightly, so I had 6 beers and who knows how much wine daily this entire week. I felt so off during my binges. I hate that feeling so much and now I have to try and "reset" my clock and start all over. I will go with my previous strategy of cutting down (first 6 beers, then 4 beers and hopefully eventually 2 a day with 2 days of a break). I'm too scared to quit cold turkey and I'm not planning to abstain as my family is coming from Germany to visit in May. They are beer drinkers and I don't want them to think I have a problem, so I'm trying to tackle the problem by May. I feel angry and guilty today cause I have a hang-over and acted quite stupid during my week of binging....so a lot of guilt on the mental part of my severe slip-up....:upset:
I had been doing well for a while with the mod (although not a well as I had hoped). As you know I'm a beer drinker and before mod, I would drink around 15 beers a day. So "moderating" at 4-6 beers a day was good for me and I had great hopes of decreasing it even more...Well, I know these things I'm dealing with right now are not an excuse to drink excessively again but I did it anyway. My husband is in the middle of changing jobs. My kids got sick with a dreadful cold and I had to take my 13 year old to the doc because he had shingles. Everything seemed to have been too much this week and I made the mistake to buy a 5 L box of wine on Monday and sipping it throughout the day, every day. Also, my husband came home with 12 packs of beer nightly, so I had 6 beers and who knows how much wine daily this entire week. I felt so off during my binges. I hate that feeling so much and now I have to try and "reset" my clock and start all over. I will go with my previous strategy of cutting down (first 6 beers, then 4 beers and hopefully eventually 2 a day with 2 days of a break). I'm too scared to quit cold turkey and I'm not planning to abstain as my family is coming from Germany to visit in May. They are beer drinkers and I don't want them to think I have a problem, so I'm trying to tackle the problem by May. I feel angry and guilty today cause I have a hang-over and acted quite stupid during my week of binging....so a lot of guilt on the mental part of my severe slip-up....:upset:
eace:
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