I decided that I needed to find a Suboxone doctor and he's great. I've been sober from heroin for 1 1/2 years, Suboxone about 5 months. Sounds good so far, right?
Well that's not exactly the case. For some unknown reason about two months ago I was given a bottle of Jack Daniels, and drank (I mean until I was piss drunk) for 4-5 nights in a row. This hasn't stopped since. I don't feel any cravings during the day, but once that clock hits around 5 to 6PM I immediately start feeling like I need a shot. I've been drinking 6/7 nights out of the week and during the day I don't drink I feel anxious and I have bowel problems.
I'm very well educated on addiction (if you've ever withdrawn from heroin you would understand what I'm saying) so I KNOW when I'm having an addiction problem. My drinking is becoming an addiction, and the addiction seems like it has plateaued for now but it's to the point where I can handle not drinking at night, but it's VERY hard to tell myself no. I assume this addiction is sprouting because I'm a lonely person and I get bored at night, during the day, well all the time.
I've entered a private Veterinary Technician college program and I can't wait to start, I have about a month, but I want to quit smoking, and most importantly drinking. If anybody has some advice I would be so appreciative. I'd love to start my new career without the cloud of addiction hanging over me.
Thank you for listening to what I have to say and not judging.
Comment