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[Hippyman]

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InDreamsAwake;1445567 wrote: Thank you Siren! I'm on day 3 today- one day at a time. But I will say last night I felt great going to bed, knowing I wouldn't wake up hungover and not remembering much of the night before. Woke up this morning feeling good, it's nice to actually have a real night's sleep instead of passing out and calling it sleep. Please keep me posted on your progress as well, it's nice to have someone to do this with!

You are doing very well and we are all here to heal together. I'm so glad you joined us! :welcome: :welcome: :welcome:

[Siren136]

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InDreamsAwake;1445676 wrote: Thank you everyone for the encouraging words and support. I didn't know it would be this hard! I loved thinking I had control of this instead of it controlling me. Today is day 3 AF and it started off positive but as soon as I got to work I was an irritable bitch. Of course I can't tell anyone here what I'm going through. I think what I hate is that everyday is more and more sobering- I'm looking back on things I've done and and am just digging deeper and deeper into the mistakes I've made. Thankfully so far the only person I've hurt is myself, but that's also hard to swallow.

Again thank you much much for the support! I'm looking at the suggested pages and am coming on here more and more knowing what an amazing group this is.

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Don't start looking back yet. You have the rest of your AF life to do that. For now, look forward, to your bright new future. Imagine what could be and you can achieve it.

It isn't always as hard as the first few days (or so I'm told). Day 6 is starting for me and I hope you are staying strong!

[tree23]

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InDreamsAwake,
Hello. I am a late twenty-something, but won't get to hold on to that much longer. I too loved the wine and it got to the point where I would drink a bottle every night, by myself. Some would call that antisocial, but at the time, I had the excellent company of my memories. Now I know better. I too, wanted to be able to drink socially but not drink at home, but unfortunately for me, the last time I tried to moderate, when I'd have one glass or drink out with friends, it would only fuel the need to buy a bottle and get home and drink. So I started MWO after some severe soul searching and realizing that I had to stop running away from some of the sh*t (PTSD, anxiety, depression) and I am 23 days AF and flipping loving it! This journey is one of self-discovery and accountability and it is not easy but it is rewarding. I am just grateful that I found the program and the support (thanks guys) in my twenties instead of ten or twenty years from now. As far as the roomies go, that could be a trifle difficult living with drinkers, I know I am still dealing with that situation (and it makes me really uncomfortable), and all my brothers and sisters drink but one obstacle at a time. I am lucky because they are all breeders so I just hang out with the pregos. Anytime you want to talk, PM...opposite side of the country but got your back.

[finallydone]

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So happy you found us! Your exactly like me in my twenties. Except i was a beer drinker. I am in my thirties now lost everything to AL. You are beyond wise to look at this now. Please don't let this progress like did and throw ten years of your life away. I have had to start over. Stick with us you have a lot going for you. Welcome aboard! :welcome:

[Drakko289]

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You sound just like me. Only i'm worse. I'm 51 now and today is my first day. When I was in my 20's I said the same thing. ( I just want to drink a little.) Well, Here I am at 51 trying once again. Hang in there, and I will also.

[FloridaBoy]

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:goodjob:


When I drank I was like the Energizer Bunny...I just kept going and going. I finally realized that I do not have an AL 'off switch' and believe it may be genetic. I am sure I am not alone.

[Kairos]

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Hi
In a Dream state- You have so much self awareness, I have to congratulate you on knowing how al is affecting your life and taking the brave step of joining MWO.
The reason you've had so many encouraging words of support from others is that we can ALL identify with where you're at on the booze-go-round - repeated guilt, fear of failing, fear of being controlled by a substance that others seem to let come and go; wanting to be sober and before the day is out self sabbotaging by giving in, etc etc etc.
All I can say is that it's a learning curve. Some of us take a while to get it. The last time I gave up I thought I had it licked after 4 months! Wrong!!! There was more I had to learn about why I drink and I went away and did my homework. I know feel I have finally got it. Don't be so hard on yourself. Learn to count every sober day a blessing and know that we're all with you. Are you counting up your sucessful days on Newbies Nest Roll Call?
And keep working on your self awareness. As you said in your first post, booze is everywhere in our culture and it aint going anywahere fast. We have to deal with its presence. Those of us who can't drink and remain healthy have to learn new strategies, but it can be done. There are many success stories on here to prove that.
Keep posting x
Kairos

[eg-73]

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How are things going? Keep me posted - I am only on day 2 and terrified I will break down. Give me hope it gets easier and better?