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[Eagle66]

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Wow Inchy, what a great thread. Hang in there, you offer hope and encouragement for us all (especially me!!)

[YouKayBee]

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Blinking wonderful, hope you feel good!

[InChains]

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journal is suspended after a delightful human being broke into my home and stole my laptop. the perfect end to a perfect week. will be back as soon as I have a laptop again.

[InChains]

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have a loan of a laptop for a short time and needed to let off some steam, sorry for spelling as kybord is awful. simple fact is my home was broken to, my laptop, probably one of the most personal, valuable and important things i own was taken. i am still in shock, very upset, lost. i can replace the machine, but the photos, writing and some art is now gone. The feeling of having my privacy invaded is just imcomparable, my whole life was on there, now somebody else has it, i don't know what they're doing to it, or if i can ever see it again. my life is falling apart, and the wagon seems long way off

[Siren136]

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That sucks, Inchy! I had my Toshiba Thrive stolen from the overhead compartment during an overnight flight (I was sleeping). I was on my way to India for 3 months and it was my only contact with my family.

Have you considered getting a back-up service?

[Doggygirl]

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Hi Inchy. I am so sorry to hear about your laptop.... :l:l:l I hope somehow it is recovered. But most importantly, I hope for your recovery... (OK - that's bad, I know!) Drinking won't bring your laptop back. :l

Thinking of you...

DG

[YouKayBee]

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InChains;1504785 wrote: have a loan of a laptop for a short time and needed to let off some steam, sorry for spelling as kybord is awful. simple fact is my home was broken to, my laptop, probably one of the most personal, valuable and important things i own was taken. i am still in shock, very upset, lost. i can replace the machine, but the photos, writing and some art is now gone. The feeling of having my privacy invaded is just imcomparable, my whole life was on there, now somebody else has it, i don't know what they're doing to it, or if i can ever see it again. my life is falling apart, and the wagon seems long way off

I've been burgled too, and I'm red hot on home security/who I let in as a result. Can identify with that violation. I used to say "Cowards would love to have been there to confront them".........then I did have a person to person robbery and would have prefered I'd not wished that upon myself. Being sober does help you be more alert and aware, but I myself hadn't found my get out after the first, had done by the second.

[InChains]

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I have a new laptop doesn't bring back my old stuff, does mean I can start talking again.

[Wine-no!]

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InChains;1505114 wrote: I have a new laptop doesn't bring back my old stuff, does mean I can start talking again.

Sorry to hear about the break in but happy to hear you have a new laptop

[K9Lover]

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Hi Inchy! How are you doing? :h

[InChains]

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14/05/13

So I am back and I am sober. I'm not gonna beat around the bush, yeah I did drink the last week, I did smoke pot and cigarettes and generally mistreat my body - I don't feel guilty for that. The headlines for the last week was 'mum took an overdose' and 'got burgled' - I was 4 days sober and nowhere near possessed of the coping skills to deal with that yet.

But I am back today, tuned up my plan a little bit, going to try and work it better than the last couple of times and, importantly quit counting days. If I am sober right now, great, I am not calling this day 1 because lord alone knows I've had more day ones than I'm entitled to. At the moment my focus is, purely and simply, on the moment.

Thanks to everybody who's sticking with me, I hope with time ths journal will grow into something pore positive.

-inchy

[InChains]

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AM - May 16th

So this is not day 2 day 2, something about this quit feels different. Maybe the fact that when I was drinking I didn't want to be? or maybe it really is that I've discovered what one day at a time actually means, I don't have a goal with this, It's not even about drinking, it's just living. Can feel awful but the idea of drinking as a cure seems somehow ridiculous now. I had intended this post to be about sleep or lack of it but... its part of life getting better - and it will pass.

-inchy

[sugarbeat]

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Loved that post Inchy, you just want life to get better and it will

[InChains]

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evening, may 15th

been thinking alot today about the situation. I had some bad news about mid afternoon, and ultimately chose to drink. I'm thinking alot now about how to cope with my life, I can't change it, but I also need to learn how to deal with it. I've also been thinking again about AA, about trying to find some support or structure as mwo isnt proving effective, and neither are my own attempts. Major question i my mind is 'do i have to be sober to learn how to cope sober, or can i learn coping first and then quit?' I don't know what I'm doing anymore, can't keep myself together with all that goes on around me.

[Wine-no!]

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I can really sympathise with you having a bi-polar mother as I do to... I am 41 now but finally had therapy six months ago trying to deal with the upset it caused me as a child (over doses by her etc.). Have you had therapy?

Personally, I think you need to quit the booze or at least reduce it right down before you can heal as it will always get in the way and as my therapist says cover over the emotions but they are still there....

I wish you all the best in whatever route you take x