This won't be a lengthy drunkalogue, just a few details, as a way of introducing myself.
Mid thirties, Caucasian male, four years where the problem progressively got worse, it wasn't so much the quantities I was drinking but more so the frequency. At 26, AA for four years abstinent. Off the wagon for the past four years, first year was ok, certainly not up to my old levels. The last three have been more of a bummer with frequent binges, I am currently in a weekly to ten day binge schedule. Cravings are coming and going, bac seems to really help with them most of the time.
Been trying my luck with nal, it's managed to curb around 20-30% of the binges, but I stopped taking it after a couple of months, now I am on and off bac, mostly on, I try to be at least. I find it helps a lot.
I am not ready to go abstinent yet, I don't much enjoy drinking either. Most of my workweek or weekend binges I 'd rather have half a j., but it's not readily available like booze is. I fucking hate booze btw, and get extremely guilt ridden with it, not merely after a binge, but upon picking up the first glass (which on a 70-30% ratio leads to a binge). I don't like the high anymore, I am in the well known category of problem drinkers (right now I hate that other word...) that alcohol doesn't really cut it, it has to be a lot, and even then it's not really there, that old magic (if there was any to begin with...) is simply gone.
Others say, oh, let's have a couple of drinks and enjoy ourselves, or three or four. I don't get that anymore. It's very very occasionally that I might ENJOY it, packaged with guilt of course (not such a counter productive feeling after all)
Anyway, I am looking to get it together, I am also looking of ways to reduce the harm done to my brain (my biggest fear), my stomach, my second biggest, and my liver, my third.
So, that's Jay's drinking problem in a nutshell for you, or Jay's drinking hell as the case might be, because after a binge it's the anxiety crises of the century and my body's wrecked.
All the best guys you got a good community here, glad I can join.
Mid thirties, Caucasian male, four years where the problem progressively got worse, it wasn't so much the quantities I was drinking but more so the frequency. At 26, AA for four years abstinent. Off the wagon for the past four years, first year was ok, certainly not up to my old levels. The last three have been more of a bummer with frequent binges, I am currently in a weekly to ten day binge schedule. Cravings are coming and going, bac seems to really help with them most of the time.
Been trying my luck with nal, it's managed to curb around 20-30% of the binges, but I stopped taking it after a couple of months, now I am on and off bac, mostly on, I try to be at least. I find it helps a lot.
I am not ready to go abstinent yet, I don't much enjoy drinking either. Most of my workweek or weekend binges I 'd rather have half a j., but it's not readily available like booze is. I fucking hate booze btw, and get extremely guilt ridden with it, not merely after a binge, but upon picking up the first glass (which on a 70-30% ratio leads to a binge). I don't like the high anymore, I am in the well known category of problem drinkers (right now I hate that other word...) that alcohol doesn't really cut it, it has to be a lot, and even then it's not really there, that old magic (if there was any to begin with...) is simply gone.
Others say, oh, let's have a couple of drinks and enjoy ourselves, or three or four. I don't get that anymore. It's very very occasionally that I might ENJOY it, packaged with guilt of course (not such a counter productive feeling after all)
Anyway, I am looking to get it together, I am also looking of ways to reduce the harm done to my brain (my biggest fear), my stomach, my second biggest, and my liver, my third.
So, that's Jay's drinking problem in a nutshell for you, or Jay's drinking hell as the case might be, because after a binge it's the anxiety crises of the century and my body's wrecked.
All the best guys you got a good community here, glad I can join.
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