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[runnergirl]

I found this website a week ago. I ordered a complete package of vitamins, supplement etc with the CD's. They came last Friday. I spent Saturday morning reading about the program and immediately realized my doctor prescribed the wrong medication for me. He prescribed Campral, BUT, I have NOT quit drinking. I realize I need Topamax, which I asked my doctor to call in for me today. So today is my first day on the program. I sure hope this works because I feel I have hit rock bottom and I can't quit drinking. My 3 children are sick of it. My personality changes when I drink too much. I am a single Mom, with a pressure cooker for a job. I am a mechanical engineer, I drink every night to relieve the stress I feel at work and at home. Exercise helps to relieve stress fo me as well. HOWEVER, lately I have had no energy to run or hit the gym, alcohol is so much easier and quicker. Isn't alcohol so easy? 2 glasses of wine and I am all good. I have also as a result of barely exercising any more and drinking so much gained 15 lbs. I am 5'-2" and have always maintained a slim, althetic toned body, 15 lbs is a lot of weight on my small frame. I hate the way I look, I used to feel pretty and petite, now I feel like an ugly ore. None of my clothes fit but I refuse to buy more because I can't stay at this weight. My sluggish feeling is probably more from my blood pressure medicine than drinking. Can you believe, 2 weeks ago, at the doctor's office it was 180/160!! Yes, this is what alcohol will do to your blood pressure! I have to quit for my health, my children and my self esteem. Well, that is all for now, it is 4:07 and I am leaving the office early, I am going to head to the park for a run! I sure hope my Doc called in the topamax, although I am concerned about the side affects and handling my engineering job.
Runnergirl

[SK8RGRL]

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i understand the BP thing. I am 165/106. doc perscribed me ramiprill 10mg. the startin dose is 1.5/2.5. worried about side effects- weight gain/ hair loss she wont negotiate so i wont take it. just ploddin on. always an excuse- its the weekend, I'm not at work tommorow, its bank holiday, I dont think I'm ever gonna beat this

[Beaches]

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Hi Runner,
I used to live in ATL...welcome.

I was on Topa and side effects didn't effect my job. I had the tingling fingers and that was about it. I too came here to get it together for myself and my kids. It was killing me thinking of the impression I was leaving on them. I came here, read the book, took topa and ordered the supplements. Now I am just taking the supplements and the "now" me is very different than the person that stumbled onto this site last year.
You can do this if you put your mind to it.

Good luck to you! Enjoy your run.

[Java]

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Welcome fellow runner!!

[MKR]

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Runner Girl - Welcome. I was actually able to take half doses of my HBP meds since cutting the drinking down to small amounts! Much luck to you. I found the CD's an invaluable help in relaxation!

[runnergirl]

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Hey all,

Yesterday was my first full day on the vitamins and supplements. I left work and headed to the park to run, taking my daughter and our dog. Cell phone is firmly clipped to my running shorts in case my daughter needs me. She plays on the playground, I run Lucy (our dog), one lap and then hand her over to my daughter to walk. My doctor calls me during my run about the topamax. I can tell he doesn't want to prescribe it, he hasn't heard of it for drinking. He tells me he will call it in for me to try, but when I go to the pharmacy later he is not there.
Okay, I think to myself, no topamax but it is 7:00 p.m., you have tons to do when you get home, you don't need a drink. The run has relieve my workday stress. I've decided to start a journal on how I feel every day. My daughter and I head to Target, she wants a journal too. She is too cute, she likes to do what I do. So it is way too scary to think of what a drunk mother will do to her. I listen to the CD in my car while she is with me. The subliminal one. She ask me about it, I tell her it is my new program for relaxation. I do my chores, she does her homework, my 14 year old daughter is closed in her room as usual giggling on the phone with her boyfriend while watching her IM and myspace account. Kerry and I crawl in bed around 8:45. I know it is bad but we sleep together. She is my baby, my last child. We both open our journals and start writing. I am fine, the thought of having a drink hasn't entered my mind since the grocery store, yahoo!!! The writing helps, I have always loved to read and write. (hmmm, side note, how did I end up an engineer?) At 9:30, I put the sleeping CD in the CD player and turn off the lights. Kerry ask, is this going to go on forever? I said, yes, baby, all night, does it bother you? No, she replies. I know she is getting the subliminal messages too, but I assume it is okay?
Well, all time to get to work. Day 2, no alcohol, take it one day at a time.
Runnergirl

P.S. I am not usually very religous but some one pointed out thess verses yesterday and it really touched me. I don't think I can do this with out God as my focal point.
Jeremiah 29:11-13
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For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD , "plans to prosper you and not
to harm you, plans to give you hope hope and a future.
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Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.
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You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

[runnergirl]

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Thanks, how do you find time to listen to the CD's the way we are supposed to?

[runnergirl]

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Thanks,
I am ready for change!

[runnergirl]

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thank you, that is reassuring to know.
How did you end up in NY. It's been cold here but supposed to be in the mid seventies by the end of the week! :-)

[runnergirl]

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You need to find another doctor. My doctor always works with me on meds. I take Cliondine? spelling, once at night and it does the trick. First he had me on one in the morning with Lotrel and one at night. But I was soooo sluggish he cut back.
You can beat this! Try and have a positive attitude, it took us a long time to get to the heavy drinking stage, it just isn't going to go away like magic.
Do you take the topamax?

[sweetpetite414]

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New Member: Blood Pressure Med w/only 1 side effect

Hi,

You don't know me, but I saw your posting while researching side effects to specific meds. My mom is in her 60's and takes Cozaar, She experiences none of the side effects associated with the alternatives to Cozaar. We researched some others, and found that Lisinopril's side effects can be: heart palpitations, difficulty breathing/swallowing, swelling hands/feet.

The only serious side effect of Cozaar is for women of childbearing age. Serious harm and even death can result to the developing fetus. If you are of childbearing age, please don't consider Cozaar. If you are older, by all means look into it. We wish you well.

Christine and Mom
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i understand the BP thing. I am 165/106. doc perscribed me ramiprill 10mg. the startin dose is 1.5/2.5. worried about side effects- weight gain/ hair loss she wont negotiate so i wont take it. just ploddin on. always an excuse- its the weekend, I'm not at work tommorow, its bank holiday, I dont think I'm ever gonna beat this

[popcorn]

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Runner girl - my story is much the same as yours - i too am a female engineer with a pressure cooker of a job. I always drank wine with dinner but for the last six months my drinking increased so much that I blacked out pretty much every night - I have two children who saw their mother passed out on a regular basis. I even started having a shot of vodka in the morning to get rid of the shakes. I use to exerise and stopped when the drinking increased. I gained 10 pounds on my 5"4 frame. But last Monday I hit rock bottom when I went to the store, bought 2 mickeys of vodka and drank them in the car on my way home (throwing the bottles out the window !! How nuts is that ?) My husband tried to commit me that night. I started having problems at work - who can concentrate with a hangover ? I have not had a drink for 5 days now and like you all I want to do is sleep and watch Law and Order reruns. Today was the first day I started working out - I already lost 3 ponds in five days ! My girls figured out what is going on (11 and 13) and told me yesterday they are prond of me ! Just take it one day at a time.

[Red]

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:welcome: runnergirl

My best advice is to keep yourself as busy as possible until the craving meds kick in. I've got 8 days sober and have already lost 9 pounds. I'm sure the weight will come off easily for you as well. I feel sooo much happier now. Every day I struggle not to drink but I'm slowly building the will power to say "I dont need you anymore" to the booze. Please get ahold of me if ever you want to talk!

[FloridaBoy]

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:welcome: This is a very good forum. Once you realize that you are not alone staying AF gets easier.