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    #1

    THAT IS IT NOW!!!

    that is it now! i am through with drinking all together, cos of drinking i lost my inhibitions and was vulnerable and got mugged...foutunately i only had a tenner on me! thank god and i only hurt my hand badly, huge graze took off half the skin! couple of bruises in other places...but generally i am ok

    but if i hadn't been drinking i know i could have seen them off or i could have least defended myslef. and also be cause i was drunk and in a state of shock me and my girlfriend had a row and now it is unknown whether i will have a girlfriend or not to come home to.

    that is it now...i am through with it...i am so scared about doing this, beer has been a crutch for me for a very long time :help!
    http://localhost/gimport/cache/avatars/addicted to living again
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    #2
    THAT IS IT NOW!!!

    So sorry to hear what happened to you. I keep telling my son about going out and being as careful as he can, but after a few, he takes silly chances as is not aware that people will take advantage of him. He's been caught out a few times but still he takes chances. There are way too many a**holes around here.
    Good luck with your girlfriend and everything else.

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      #3
      THAT IS IT NOW!!!

      thank you Popeye, i know i am gonna be left with a scarred hand and that will be a memory to remind me not to drink again xx
      http://localhost/gimport/cache/avatars/addicted to living again

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        #4
        THAT IS IT NOW!!!

        Sorry about your incident, you can't be to careful. Thank God your alive. I think your girlfriend will be there for you. You knows you have been trying to get control of your drinking. Right? Take care of yourself
        I care
        mary

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          #5
          THAT IS IT NOW!!!

          thank you Mary, she is very angry at me today, her best friend os coming over to her and mine maybe coming to me.

          i hope she will stand by me...i hope...

          thank you for your support Mary
          http://localhost/gimport/cache/avatars/addicted to living again

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            #6
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            hi Existence

            sounds like a dreadful night out...you didnt say if your girlfriend is a heavy drinker too?
            I hope you dont lose the support she was giving you emotionally and practically...i read "your Story" and i can see it has been a tough ride.

            if you can ..dont hit the beer today...hang on to your self respect.You dont want another "drunken row" they are so painful arent they.

            so get pampering yourself and get back into shape??oh and nurse those wounds too.

            keep busy, getting cleaning the house, bubbly baths, line up a dvd, go take a walk, face packs....plan a self indulgent evening alone and sober....light a few candles and relax to music.

            tell yourself you can have a happy evening without beer and on a temporary basis ..(hopefully) without your girl friend.

            you can do it ...so rock on and enjoy the rest opf today...sober???


            Regards Cassy

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              #7
              THAT IS IT NOW!!!

              I hope she stays too. It's very clear how much you love her. You just have to convince her you love her more than the alcohol. And you my dear have to love yourself too. It's over you can't change what happened, you can only change how you act in the future.
              I care keep us updated
              Mary

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                #8
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                thanks guys...i filed a report with the police/my ex-girlfriend and she is trying to help. Kris and i are more ok right now, she is pointing out that she cares and loves me, she was just hurt by some comments i made...but we seem to be on the mend.

                i am the heavy drinker between the two of us i have never even seen her drunk! :P

                and here is the hand...




                Kel x
                http://localhost/gimport/cache/avatars/addicted to living again

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                  #9
                  THAT IS IT NOW!!!

                  Ouch, Kel, that looks so painful. I am so glad that you and Kristina are on the mend. When I was drinking heavily I said some awfu,l blood curdling thing to my husband. Thank God he didn't leave me. We are closer than ever now. Hold Kristina close and let her know just how much she means to you. I can tell you she loves you just as much. You two can make it!! I hope they catch that bastard that did that to you.
                  Take care
                  Mary

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                    #10
                    THAT IS IT NOW!!!

                    Hi Love,

                    Only just spotted this, hope that you are doing Ok now,

                    All the best to you and Kristina, hang in there love, you really will feel better if you don't drink .....
                    sigpicXXX

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                      #11
                      THAT IS IT NOW!!!

                      Boy Oh Boy can I relate. See my listing re: wake up call

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                        #12
                        THAT IS IT NOW!!!

                        the wound is healing up now and actually looks like a little red caterpillar :P gotta see the funny side of things. i still fear for our realationship, it is not just me at all, she is pushing me away with her severe depression, anxiety and her own more aggressive form of Agoraphobia.

                        main problem with us is the distance, i am in England and she is in Canada over 3000miles away from one another and we have been for the past year, i met her here for a few weeks at the end of her time here and she went home and been together via internet ever since, but things are turning sour...and she has verbally abused me on occasion too.

                        i don't think we are going to last much longer...but i refuse to turn to drinking if that happens, if/when it happens i wanna diet, workout and detox my body for race for life and make myself into a whole new woman and if we stay together i am doing all that anyway :P

                        thank you for all your support everyone xx
                        http://localhost/gimport/cache/avatars/addicted to living again

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                          #13
                          THAT IS IT NOW!!!

                          Hi Exist, yukky close up - cheers! Yep why do we do it eh, make ourselves so vulnerable to anyone on the street to abuse, rob, etc... Delighted with Cassy's response and even if you don't I am going to take the advice to 'pamper' myself, not just today but everyday, no matter how small, we are worth it. Hope all goes ok with your girl, hopefully you are feeling the aggro is worse than it actually was and she will be ok as she has in the past. Take care of yourself, will be thinking about you. Let us know how it goes.

                          Lorna
                          Rather die standing, than live on my knees, begging Please..... No More.......

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                            #14
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                            oh kel, I didn't know she was so far away. This is really tough. I know you want the relationship on one level ,but on another you seem almost ready to let go. I read what you wrote under self esteem. So when she is mean to you do you feel you deserve that? I don't. As I wrote before I said horrible things to my husband while drunk. I so regret that. Everyone has problems. I like the idea of you working on you for awhile. If you and Kristina are meant to be it will happen. Is there any way you can go to her or vice versa? If it dosen't work out be the most smokin' hot lesbian in Europe!
                            Take Care
                            Mary

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                              #15
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                              Simey you are sooo coool... World wide

                              L
                              Rather die standing, than live on my knees, begging Please..... No More.......

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