It has been a week ago that I made the decision to deal with this problem. And so far so good. I ordered the whole package, cd's supplements and book. I rec'd it a few days ago and started on the book but have been very busy in a good way. I didn't get the B50 in the mail so I'm waiting on that. I want to finish the book before I start the supplements because i'm not sure how to use them, but I willt take the Kudsu in the early evening starting tomorrow. I am a 50 year old female, happily married with four grown children. I am committed to curtailing or eliminating alcohol in my life, whatever it takes. I have no fantasies that I can moderate it long term and so I'm willing to give it up if moderation doesn't work. My father was an alcoholic who sobered up three years before he died of a sudden heart attack. I vowed my whole I life would not go down the road of an alcoholic but I fear I am on that path unless I do something drastic and change my lifestyle. Drinking is very social for me. Most of my friends are social drinkers and it is part of dining out and our lifestyle. I love wine as well but it really irritates my stomach so I am avoiding it out of the misery it causes me. I've had to give up coffee, another addiction of mine due to the stomach issues. My problem is not social drinking. It is downing one glass of wine after another or drinking vodka and soda during the evening hours at home, getting upset about nothing, feeling awful the next day and realizing how I crave it come 6:00 pm. I can drink a regular bottle of wine by myself but I feel awful the next day. It has really affected my mood at times and I have even contemplated suicide while intoxicated. That scares me. Sober, it doesn't even cross my mind and I am afraid I might do something crazy if intoxicated. I can tell alcohol is messing with my thinking process and it is time to make serious changes.
I started my changes a week ago and have had one martini since. Went out to dinner with friends and sipped it for an hour and a half. Got home and drank some hot tea until I went to bed. The next evening, I got the craving but brewed some tea instead and then hot cocoa. The next day after that, no craving at all. It has been three days since then I am fine. No serious cravings. I do beleive I have a strong will power but it takes a lot to get me to make the kind of committment to overcome something that I enjoy and don't really want to give up.
I definately have to do something. I don't fall for the magic bullet type of programs but this one perked me because of the members here and positive posts. I thought it might be for me. I am not interested in AA. I've been there with my father and felt it was depressing and not an environment I want to be in. I have no problem disclosing this with my family but I want to be sure this is it before I say much about it. I've told them before I have trouble stopping at one drink and am acutely aware of the family history. I did tell my husband, of course, and he is very supportive. I told my doctor today I was doing this and she was supportive. No one would ever guess I drink to excess. I am a very together person and only those very close to me know I abuse it at times and even then I have gotten better about hiding it.
I am also very, very leary of the Topo drug. I have a family member who took it for another illness and was a zombie the entire time. Absolutely ruined her quality of life but she had to take it for an illness. I am going on the supplements, will do the cd's and will read the website as well as the book. I am already exercising and have been for the last six months, lost weight to my goal weight and am in really good health. I feel better than I have felt since I was 25 years old. I am very active. I feel like I have the energy and ambition address this now. I also am at a low stress level and I think that is helping me make the decision. I have a tendency to drink when stressed so I hope all these factors help my success.
Thanks to all who post your encouraging thoughts and experiences. There are many of us lurkers looking for something to turn to and you give us hope. I hope this is a turning point for me. I know it is. I feel it in my gut. I've only quit one other time but it was not like this. I was not willing to give it up totally. The suicidal stuff has been my wakeup call.
On the Rocks
I started my changes a week ago and have had one martini since. Went out to dinner with friends and sipped it for an hour and a half. Got home and drank some hot tea until I went to bed. The next evening, I got the craving but brewed some tea instead and then hot cocoa. The next day after that, no craving at all. It has been three days since then I am fine. No serious cravings. I do beleive I have a strong will power but it takes a lot to get me to make the kind of committment to overcome something that I enjoy and don't really want to give up.
I definately have to do something. I don't fall for the magic bullet type of programs but this one perked me because of the members here and positive posts. I thought it might be for me. I am not interested in AA. I've been there with my father and felt it was depressing and not an environment I want to be in. I have no problem disclosing this with my family but I want to be sure this is it before I say much about it. I've told them before I have trouble stopping at one drink and am acutely aware of the family history. I did tell my husband, of course, and he is very supportive. I told my doctor today I was doing this and she was supportive. No one would ever guess I drink to excess. I am a very together person and only those very close to me know I abuse it at times and even then I have gotten better about hiding it.
I am also very, very leary of the Topo drug. I have a family member who took it for another illness and was a zombie the entire time. Absolutely ruined her quality of life but she had to take it for an illness. I am going on the supplements, will do the cd's and will read the website as well as the book. I am already exercising and have been for the last six months, lost weight to my goal weight and am in really good health. I feel better than I have felt since I was 25 years old. I am very active. I feel like I have the energy and ambition address this now. I also am at a low stress level and I think that is helping me make the decision. I have a tendency to drink when stressed so I hope all these factors help my success.
Thanks to all who post your encouraging thoughts and experiences. There are many of us lurkers looking for something to turn to and you give us hope. I hope this is a turning point for me. I know it is. I feel it in my gut. I've only quit one other time but it was not like this. I was not willing to give it up totally. The suicidal stuff has been my wakeup call.
On the Rocks
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