I love my husband and have no interest to be with anyone else but I don't want to be married to him anymore. I want a divorce but we cannot afford to live separately. I feel like the only reason we are still married is because we can't afford to live on our own. It's very expensive to live here.
Anyway, it seems like "out of the blue" I started drinking 3 years ago and I'm almost 50. Before I might have a drink but it wasn't something I thought about and I could easily have only 1 or 2 beer. Now I can't stop. Is it because I am so unhappy? I am a closet drinker but I guess it's not a secret anymore.
This morning my husband said there was puke all over the bathroom and he cleaned it up. I don't remember puking. I have had a number of mishaps and a couple times I even forgot to "hide" the last can of beer because I "forgot" about it. I have to quit but I don't know how. I am actually getting scared because I am drinking more and more and can't stop and now I am doing and saying things that I don't remember. Very scary that I have fallen down stairs, puked, etc. :upset:
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