I was wondering if anybody was as scared as I am right now? I'm afraid that I might be insane whether I drink or not...Does alcohol change your brain permanently even if you quit after long-term drinking? I mean, I know I'm acting completely insane while drunk (ewi, pwi, emailing while intoxicated, phoning while intoxicated, etc...). Now, I'm worried that my drinking has done some permanent damage to my brain because I'm completely depressed and guilty right now. I'm scared to even stay off the beer now because it seems too hard to handle. What if I really am crazy even while off the drink??? Anybody feel scared and worried like that?
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You will feel better the longer you go without the beer. Your brain really needs feeding of some healthy stuff, not beer. The supplements suggested on here are key in doing just that. One of the main reasons I started looking for help was because I felt like you; that alcohol was permanently altering my brain and my personality in a very negative way. Since I have started this program I am feeling much more like my old self. But you have to feed your brain and your body healthy things right now. You will get better.I'm really easy to get along with once people learn to worship me -
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I really think the supplements help with that sense of depression, confusion etc.
also your brain is used to having that beer, and when it doesn't you feel uneasy anxious etc.
it takes time.....You can't turn a pickle into a cucumberComment
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I was just walking through the market wondering if I was going coo-coo myself! I hate this feeling of foggy, unsettled brain over-activity. I drank last night, thus my unsettled head. I just have to beleive it will change after a few clear days. It is very I think I will go for a quick walk around the block and take some big fresh breaths - Maybe think about doing something like that. I will start the supplements again tomorrow and I have ordered the Topa. Are you taking anything?
As for the permanant brain damage - My father drank VERY heavily his whole life. I put him in the hospital at the age of 53, when I found him in a really bad motel drinking vodka out of the ice bucket. That was ten years ago. He has been sober since. He brain is fine. I know many really hard-core drinkers that have stopped and they are some of the clearest people I know.. So, IMHO, I don't beleive there is any long-term damage.
Time to take a breath, start over, love yourself. Good luck!Face your deficiencies and acknowledge them, but do not let them master you. Let them teach you patience, sweetness, insight.Comment
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Moderation:
I think I know how you feel. I swear I think I am crazy sometimes. Sometimes I think I can't remember anything that happened in my life and I wonder, "Is it because I have drank so much that I have lost all my memory?" It is scary. Lushy is right. Your body and your brain need some serious "good stuff". Good food, good vitamins, suppliments, water, exercise, SLEEP. Everything it has not had enough of because you were drinking. Alcohol will try to play tricks on you and try to make you think you need it instead of all the good stuff, but don't listen. Take care of your body for awhile. It will get easier and you will get better in time. Honestly, I don't think it ever goes away completely...sorry, but I think the cravings do get quieter and the crazy feelings do get less noticeable. hang in there!!!Learning to live life on the outside of a bottle. :flower:Comment
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Thank you all so much for your encouragement! I feel better already, knowing that I have friends like you---who been there done that! Thank you, thank you.....Comment
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The longest I've abstained for is 18 days, but even in that short period of time I noticed a huge improvement in my mood, thinking, sleep cycle.Comment
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ModerationNow, I know exactly what you mean. I have often worried about my mental state after drinking. i am not only depressed but feel frightened to go out. i am paranoid and generally mad in my head. I worry that i have destroyed my brain and it is THE most frightening feeling in the whole world. after a couple of days off the drink, my head starts feeling better, so hang in there and you will be okay. Bella xxComment
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never felt nuts while drinking or had a lapse in mental health...until I stopped drinking and the Post Acute Withdrawal Syndrome set in...PAWS for short...you feel like you are going nuts....scares the hell out of you...over time it got better...still have my bad days but know how to handle it....I'm in month 8, and they say PAWS can go on for up to two years. Still, better than getting wasted everyday and not being a present member of my family, etc...
To me, as fucked up as PAWS is, it still beats destroying my mind and body day after day!
Good luck!Comment
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always feel fucked up when i have the urge to drink, but thats kind of a reason, it seems to feel better for a bit, then of course i feel like shit in morning, and always in the morning, how the hell do i stop? its been years, i just cant seem to do it, keep trying, what the fuck is wrong with me!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am usually so strong, but this is too much, i cannot do it anymore! so many years gone, still trying, what is wrong with me!!!!!!how can ichange this crap i go through over and over! so sorry to be a downer, really, dont listen to me, i am nothing, i just needed to vent a bit, so sorryComment
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Don't confuse being human with being a downer. It's a huge problem we face, this alcohol craving that won't go away and just leave us the f*ck alone. It really stinks!!!! You can do this because you ARE somebody, and you are somebody that matters. You matter to me and to everyone else on these boards. It is OK to vent, we all need to do it. That's why we have each other. Hang in there Katie, vent, scream, kick, cry, talk, listen, read, do whatever it takes. We are here for each other. No matter what.Learning to live life on the outside of a bottle. :flower:Comment
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I feel like i am in two minds, trying to fight alcohol ( the good fairy) and DONT EVEN BOTHER SAYNG NO ( the bad fairy) kudzu workd good the first time, but second time I was asking myself why dont I feel like a beer?"From now on, walking is my beer and feeling good is my hangover" .....Homer SimpsonComment
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HEY!!
Sorry Katie 888888888 (etc)
just had to pick you up on this one...
"I am nothing"???
I DON'T THINK SO! You are committed to making a change. You have identified that there is a need for change. That's why you come here.
Gem xFree since 26th February 2012Comment
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oh yes i was scared terrified more to the point i was convinced i could feel my liver expanding, i was petrified in case i had to get bloods done for anything and they would identify me as an alcoholic, i used to tell people i was on meds and that was why my hands shook, i was convinced i was going mad or was mad, then i found this site
i am on day 11 and feel so much better, things i was scared about i can get into perspective now it has not been easy day 6 and i was climbing the walls, i know i have a very long way to go and certainly would never presume to say yea ive done it i just take every day separatley and hope if i do slip i will be supported on hereComment
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