Some of this is going to be a bit of a ramble but I just need to say it!
T$his is the first time I've ever told anyone formally that I am an alcoholic - I just can't tell my parents (they'd worry) or my friends (They don't know the extent of my secret drinking that I do on top of socialising). Whilst I've had the rarity of going an evening without drink today it's only because I had a load Thursday. Typically I've been drinking 40-50 pints a week the last year and prior to that I've been a heavy drinker since I was 16.
My lowest point in the last year was after a bender last September when I fell into a wall due to alcohol and smashed my face and had the indignity of a member of the public calling an ambulance and being hospitalised for a few hours. The worst bit was the following Sunday morning when I woke up late and the first thing I thought was "Sh*t its late - I'm missing the pub". I went as well and that's when I knew I had a problem.
Since then I've continued drinking heavily but at least knowing I have a problem.
I'm glad I've found you all now. So I'm going to read, get the stuff and initially commit to coming here 3 nights when I'd normally get smashed.
Look forward to speaking with you all soonand reading your posts.
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