Hi. My name is Andrew. I just want to start by saying hello to you all. It's such a relief to have found this site and to see that we can help one another.
Some of this is going to be a bit of a ramble but I just need to say it!
This is the first time I've ever told anyone formally that I am an alcoholic - I just can't tell my parents (they'd worry) or my friends (They don't know the extent of my secret drinking that I do on top of socialising). Whilst I've had the rarity of going an evening without drink today it's only because I had a load Thursday. Typically I've been drinking 40-50 pints a week the last year and prior to that I've been a heavy drinker since I was 16.
My lowest point in the last year was after a bender last September when I fell into a wall due to alcohol and smashed my face and had the indignity of a member of the public calling an ambulance and being hospitalised for a few hours. The worst bit was the following Sunday morning when I woke up late and the first thing I thought was "Sh*t its late - I'm missing the pub". I went as well and that's when I knew I had a problem.
Since then I've continued drinking heavily but at least knowing I have a problem. The hangovers and cravings have got worse, my performance at work has got worse and my girlfriend has dumped me (not because she knew I was an alcoholic, more because of the emails, texts, phone calls I'd undertake when smashed)
Positively I'm glad I've found you all now. So to start I'm going to read, get the stuff and initially try and commit to coming here 3 nights per week in the hours when I'd normally get smashed.
I look forward to speaking with you all soon and reading your posts.
Hope you all have a good weekend.
Some of this is going to be a bit of a ramble but I just need to say it!
This is the first time I've ever told anyone formally that I am an alcoholic - I just can't tell my parents (they'd worry) or my friends (They don't know the extent of my secret drinking that I do on top of socialising). Whilst I've had the rarity of going an evening without drink today it's only because I had a load Thursday. Typically I've been drinking 40-50 pints a week the last year and prior to that I've been a heavy drinker since I was 16.
My lowest point in the last year was after a bender last September when I fell into a wall due to alcohol and smashed my face and had the indignity of a member of the public calling an ambulance and being hospitalised for a few hours. The worst bit was the following Sunday morning when I woke up late and the first thing I thought was "Sh*t its late - I'm missing the pub". I went as well and that's when I knew I had a problem.
Since then I've continued drinking heavily but at least knowing I have a problem. The hangovers and cravings have got worse, my performance at work has got worse and my girlfriend has dumped me (not because she knew I was an alcoholic, more because of the emails, texts, phone calls I'd undertake when smashed)
Positively I'm glad I've found you all now. So to start I'm going to read, get the stuff and initially try and commit to coming here 3 nights per week in the hours when I'd normally get smashed.
I look forward to speaking with you all soon and reading your posts.
Hope you all have a good weekend.