Back again, wine drinking escaper

[hazeleyes]

So today I decided to stop drinking again. I have been drinking a bottle of wine every second day for months and I am tired of the cycle. I am 96 kgs, blotted, and fighting depression. I am busy developing a new business and being hung over constantly gets in the way.
Today I am going to stop, gets some sparkling water and glutamine, ride my bike, walk, and eat a lot more salad.
It's 5 days until Christmas and I am going to be sober and clear headed by then.
Thanks for reading - Day one 21/12/2014

[NoSugar]

Welcome back, HazelEyes.

Maybe you could join in on the Newbies Nest, too - there's all sorts of activity and support there most days.

What a great Christmas present you are giving yourself!

[hazeleyes]

Day two and after setting myself up with sparkling water, and healthy food, along with plenty to do, I feel ok. Need to watch out for the grumps coming.

[frances]

Keep it going - glad to see you here! You are smart to keep your guard up - be ready for anything and you will be in good shape. I was a bottle or more a day drinker myself - I am so glad to be free from those chains - you will be too!!

[NotHappyHourHappyLife]

Hello Hazel... how are you? Holidays are a difficult time to drink, because while we are trying to restrict our drinking, oftentimes, it's the time of year when "normal" people have a week of vacation and decide it's their week to PARTY....

I hope you are well. Patty

[Eloise]

Wondering how you are doing Hazeleyes?!

[DarrylC24]

How are you doing now hazeleyes?

[hazeleyes]

We'll talk about complete failure! I wasn't able to stick to that commitment at all. So Im back to have another go. I think the problem is wine has become my friend. My social interaction as I have no friends. I get mad at the thought of losing my friend AL.
I will have to work on reframing AL as the poison it really is. What a stupid trap I have fallen into again.

[satz123]

Hazel - I'll give you one piece of advice & that is to commit to posting here EVERY DAY - drinking or not drinking.
Reading & posting does help - believe me - from someone whose best friend in the world was red wine at one stage.

I just unfriended it bit by bit - till now I just ignore it and hook up with my other friends sparkling water with ice & lime & chocolate .
It can be done...
(when needed)

[Trying To Be Happy]

Hi Hazeleyes, how are you?

The most important thing I have figured out so far is don't give up on the whole thing. Ever. I got to the point where I didn't think I could ever get out of the hole I had dug for myself, and I have made huge progress (with over 6 of the last 7 months alcohol free, and the interruption was in the middle of that - I got myself out again before it got too crazy). The point is, never say never. You can do this - you just have to keep trying. If you fall over, pick yourself up and try again. There is no end until you stop trying.

And satz is right - find new friends and make new habits with them. Who cares if it is icecream - if you don't want it to be wine, change it! I know it is easier said than done, but don't give up on yourself. A lot of people here will tell you how far they have come when they never thought they could.

Hugs xo

[Trying To Be Happy]

PS: just by being back, you are still fighting. I hope you realise that!

[Eloise]

Hazeleyes- hi!
yup, i was you as well! I cannot count the number of times I started and stopped with wine.
I sincerely thought there was not way to quit. I didn't know how.
Well, the last time I tried to quit was 11 months ago. Imagine?!
Posting in the Newbie Nest has helped me immensely. The other thing is I finally decided to quit, no more thinking I could drink occasionally. It would always lead back to every day.
Sticking around here even when you find it completely stupid is what has to be done.
At least for me. And, the more I do not drink the more I realise that I need as much support as possible not to forget that I really just should not drink alcohol again EVER.
Once you 'get it' it get better!:hug:

[hazeleyes]

Thanks so much for all the comments. You can see from the date it's been awhile since I came here, mainly because of guilt. I went back to drinking wine every 2nd day and some days more. I hate myself, and I hate what I see in the mirror. What is wrong with me!!!

So, here I am again reading all the posts and vowing to quit again.
Reasons to Quit
Restore my health
Stop looking bloated
Stop waking up with a hangover and dry mouth
Stop feeling guilty
Stop encouraging my husband to drink
Lose weight
Save money
Grow a better character
Face my problems sober and make better decisions
Learn to live again
Be proud of myself
Learn to love myself
Do more for others

Please help me

[Byrdlady]

Head in over to the Nest, HazelEyes! Link below. We can help! Every single one of us have walked in those same shoes. The nest is active,you will find great support there! We are so glad you have made the decision to take your precious life back! Byrdie

[Eloise]

Welcome back Hazeleyes.
What is most important is you are back, now you have to check in everyday!