Om Mani Pedme Hung

[idiot_wind]

:new: Hi everyone :-)

Have been reading the posts on here for the last few days and think I would really like to get to now you all... I really do need some kind of support on a daily basis, I think...

I have been drinking too much for years and have had more than enough warning signs to know I should cut way back or stop all together. (I figure I'll try to dramatically cut back and if that fails, may have to abstain)

When ever I try to stop for a week, I last about 3 days before I drink at least a bottle of red (usually more like two) and get edgy and twitch when falling asleep after not drinking for a few days...That can't be good...

I run 3kms and am at the gym everyday, surf, snow ski, scuba dive and eat a healthy diet...What am I doing drinking a bottle or two of wine almost every night?

I live by myself at the moment which doesn't help as I get bored (and there is no one to tell me I have had too much...lol)

I know that drinking is affecting my mental health....I am often nervous talking to people and feel depressed more than I should (I don't feel that way after 3 days of being sober)

I think I am just coming to the realization that I am an alcoholic, to be honest, which is making me quite upset (still better than not noticing and carrying on)

People have told me I don't get invited to parties because everyone expects me to get drunk and be a pain in the arse, even though everyone thinks I'm great when I am sober...

Time to sort myself out, I think...

Any help would be appreciated...


By the way "Om Mani Pedme Hung" is a Tibetan Mantra meaning

"The Jewel are within the Lotus"

You are the Lotus Flower, grown from the mud, up through the water to raise your face at the Sun"

The Jewels are Compassion and Wisdom..

Hope to hear from you all...

David xxx

[ducky]

Om Mani Pedme Hung

Welcome David,

Realizing you have a problem is the first step. This is a great place to be. Have you read the book? You can download it right away.

I can identify with you when you say how active you are, yet you drink. I have always been good about going to the gym and leading an active lifestyle, yet found it hard to control the alcohol.

Keep reading and posting!

[Guest]

Om Mani Pedme Hung

Hi David and welcome.

You seem to lead a very healthy lifestyle, save for the wine, so that gives you a head start.

Have really just started out myself-am now on Wk. 2 of moderating, and am pleased with my progress to date.

Didn`t think I could do it, but now I know I can, because I am.............

Best wishes,

Starlight Impress

[thought2much]

Om Mani Pedme Hung

Hi David

You sound like you have most things pretty much sorted in life. Time to cut back the booze I guess.

It is a hard road though. I have been going 10 days and am doing my head in. I just keep writing here to keep reminding myself what a mess I have made of my life, in some respects. I have been damn lucky in so many other ways.....

I have found reading some of the stories of the others here is a real eye opener. Some people have it pretty tough and have turned their drinking around. Inspirational stuff.

I train really hard to keep me off the booze..... I stop training and start drinking..... sigh.... Keep up your training. I imagine your (our) fitness will improve as we empty our blood of all the toxins.... I am looking forward to being a bit more competitive on the water this summer.

[idiot_wind]

Om Mani Pedme Hung

Starlight, you are doing well, I lived in the UK and know what Scott's drink like!

Ducky, I haven't read the book and don't intend to just yet...I figure a trip to the GP's and a bottle of 2mg Diazapam, along with a drinking diary and lots of meditation will be my first steps ...
Wish me lots of luck...I think this is going to be harder than I thought... I lasted 4 days last time and then took the day off because I drank two bottles of Pinot...

David x

[nancy]

Om Mani Pedme Hung

Welcome to our virtual community!

I think social situations are very hard when you have a drinking problem

Sounds like for you, it's a very antisocial habit so you have a big incentive to change it.

Good luck

[idiot_wind]

Om Mani Pedme Hung

On a lighter note...I have 2 stress fractures (from running 30kms in preparation for the Melbourne Marathon in 4 months time) in one ankle as of 3 days ago and am now strapped up in a plastic boot for the next 6 weeks... Drinking and lying in bed is much safer...lol

[luc]

Om Mani Pedme Hung

Hello David, welcome to our very special group of friends. I know how you feel about the excess, I just can't get my head around why as a keen sports person I ruin all my chances by drinking far too much wine, even the day before a competition locally or away from home, I'm still planning how to fit my drinking in - just simply crazy. Like you, I eat healthily but do not understand why my alter ego needs to self destruct. I will beat it and so will you.

luc.

[Kitty]

Om Mani Pedme Hung

Hi David, just wanted to say :welcome:

And I can identify with the few days off then back to downing a couple of bottles of wine. I've been doing that for years now and I'm just starting to make tiny steps of progress thanks to the information and support I have gained here.

I don't know the answers yet but we'll find them in the end.

Good luck on your journey,

Kitty

[idiot_wind]

Om Mani Pedme Hung

Wow. I only posted tonight and already know you are all as mad as I am!

Thank you all so much :-) XXX

Being on here is going to help me I think...

David x

[Cinders]

Om Mani Pedme Hung

Welcome!!

David,

Many of our members are athletes. I know it is amazing but true. This addiction seems to be independent of intelligence, athleticism, culture (except maybe those who don't drink due to religious reasons - but I personally know an alcoholic Moslem and you can only imagine how scared he is!!).

This site welcomes and will support all who wish to be here. We are all dealing with the same issue.

Whether or not you want to follow the MWO program is totally up to you. However, there are some aspects of the program you might want to consider, especially the supplements. Being an athlete I assume you are cognizant of nutritional needs for the body. Alcoholics require special supplements due to the affects of alcohol on the brain. These are documented not only in RJ's MWO book, but in several places on the web. Google for alcoholism and nutrition and you will find a plethoria of information.

Working with your doctor and researching is a good place to start.

Anytime you need a sounding board or support, you have us, too!!

Again, :welcome:

Cindi

[bootcampbarbie]

Om Mani Pedme Hung

you know tis a funny thing. i read a lot of posts here from a lot of active people. i work out everyday and do rigorous training in bootcamp series 3 to 4 times a week and then go work out doing something out in and around that. then alter ego comes and out and wants some wine or something. i on the other hand do get invited to parties. i stay just long enough to have some but then buy something head home and drink up. lol i wouldn't have wanted most to know what a lush i was. on occasion people would see wow she drinks a lot. i have found this place a great haven. and i have found many stories from very active people, who are very sports minded, who are also very much physically susceptible too the drink.
and i did download the book and i read it in like 2 hours. i couldn't put it down. it was amazing. wow, the holy grail. those vitamins too even if you don't do the meds. wow the body loves em. kudzo so loves up that liver. amino acids loves up those adrenals which for us are shot. l glut well enough said. and you can shut down the cravings after awhile when you are popping them. so i'm coming to terms with mods is prob more of a good idea. so i'm going with af for awhile. i've got another series of 5 weeks for bootcamp training on the beach and instead of planning my drinking around it, i thought it might be something to plan a sober bootcamp series for a change. hummmmm keep checking in

[Pebbles]

Om Mani Pedme Hung

Hi David and welcome,

I ran last years London Marathon while drinking a bottle of red most nights...not the best preparation.

Being here helps, there's so much information, you don't have to do it all, or any of it, but some of it strikes a chord and if any of it helps you to cut down it's got to be worth it.

Good Luck on your journey.

xxx

[tea]

Om Mani Pedme Hung

Hi David, welcome. So glad you have found us, this place will change your life. Try to read through some old posts, lots of great stuff there from wise advice and sad stories to laugh out loud posts. Looking forward to seeing you around the boards.

L

[toughintexas]

Om Mani Pedme Hung

Hey David! Yes, there's alot of "active" members here, and not only in the actively drinking category!....lol.....You can read the book in like 2hrs., just download it, the author loved wine too...lol... I've survived cancer now 3 yrs., eat organic, work-out, drink tons of water, green/red tea, leave Texas for Baltimore, to go to Johns Hopkins 2-3 times yrly to stay "checked-up"...and how do I sabotage it all....With a bottle of Pinot, but Grigio, not Noir...lol....crazy as heck isn't it! The l-glut. is a great craving inhibitor...I get the MetRx powder, hit a big dose before you pop the cork, give it about an hour to kick in, I take it at about 2, 5 and 7...give or take...the amino acids are great for the depressed feeling, and "antsy' withdrawls, I'm not drinking thing...lol.... You are in a great place, and we're all here struggling with you....go to chat some, and keep posting, and heal up!! Glad you are here, we're all lots alike!!!