I don't want to blow his cover, but I feel I am in crisis.
As you all know, Det has been having a hard time. He overdid on Sat at a party.
No big deal, really. Just one night; he has to be free to fall down and learn what his boundaries are.
The problem is that he continued to drink all Sun, and I was finally able to convince him to stop that night.
He was in a bad condition, but thankfully no dt's.
I gave him librium and Vit B1 & C and took blood pressure tests often.
He went 2 days AF.
Then tonight Tues. He has had emotional and angry outbursts.
He wanted to drink. He was very upset.
I know when I need to leave him alone. I finally said - do what you're gonna do.
I could not convince him not to drink.
We missed the chance to stop his normal pattern to not make himself very sick.
The next week will be tough. I have blood pressure meds and librium on hand.
We have had talks about his thoughts on what AF means to him.
What is so bad about being someone who doesn't drink?
He considers it equal to leprosy; a social outcast.
He is more afraid of being "that guy" than sick and dead.
It breaks my heart that he is not ready to be free.
Why risk the great things in life?
Someone please explain to me why?
I just miss him.
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